tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-45452080497980722552024-03-06T06:19:33.126+01:00Felida The G33kBecause a YouTube channel simply doesn't say it all...Unknownnoreply@blogger.comBlogger35125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4545208049798072255.post-86858618687081703352013-05-27T16:49:00.002+02:002013-05-27T16:53:41.241+02:00Today I will be a petty cunt!Petty, you say? Damn straight. Screw acting morally correct today, because what I post here, won't have any effect on either of the folks I am talking about anyway, so I may as well let out how I really feel, and there is a fat chance that neither of them will ever even read this blog. And if they do, well, at least I was completely honest with both of them.<br />
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Who are we talking about? And why are we talking about them?<br />
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Thunderf00t and coughlan616, boys and girls. And we are talking about them, because we still have a bone to pick. It's a petty bone, but it's still waiting for a picking, and here's the chance to do just that, so why the fuck not?<br />
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So here's what's going on: For what feels like ages now, Thunderf00t and coughlan616 haven't been able to see eye to eye. Well no, that's too mildly worded. They piss on each other's legs. The question is, where do I stand in all this, and why do I care?<br />
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To be fair, the majority of the points coughlan616 makes about Thunderf00t are pretty damn straight on. Not really anything I can argue with. Thunderf00t has a history of throwing all muslims into the same pot, claiming they all support terrorism, even if they aren't terrorists themselves, and rather than simply supporting a secular society, he would love to forcefully eradicate religion as a whole. He picks his fights unfairly by going after weak targets, while ignoring valid criticism from more intelligent folks, often gets things wrong, but refuses to accept correction, and worst of all, loves to claim that any criticism, mocking, parody and impersonation aimed at him is either performed or directed by coughlan616, which demonstrably isn't so. Rather than refuting arguments, Thunderf00t resorted to giving coughlan an armchair diagnosis he plagiarized from a known YouTube troll who also had beef with coughlan616, and he isn't above accepting support from white supremacists in his crusade against coughlan or any other enemies, especially those of brownish skin.<br />
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As you can tell, I'm very much inclined to support coughlan's arguments. So why then is it, that I won't support the person?<br />
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And that's where the word petty comes in. Call it revenge (although I am not actively getting any) or just a sick sense of satisfaction that I can finally throw his own words back at him.<br />
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You see, quite some time back there was some drama. Well no, there still is some drama. Perpetuated by a group of failtrolls, that continue making videos about me. These folks actively approach anyone who feels I caused them some form of butthurt, give them a victim stamp and then unite in chanting about how evil I am. False accusations were made, my channel was flagged into oblivion, I was severely harrassed by these folks. They still try even now. However, after initially responding to the accusations, defending myself and informing folks whenever I was flagged, I simply stopped responding to them. Yet they continued making videos, and some of them for some reason seemed to be quite popular with coughlan at the time.<br />
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More than three months after I had stopped responding, coughlan suddenly made a video, which he also tweeted out, telling not only these trolls, but also me to shut up, and that nobody was interested in our drama. He continued by informing everyone that he liked that one troll, so he wouldn't block him, but would block everyone else involved, and I suddenly found myself on his blocked list. Trying to inform him that I hadn't even participated for over three months only resulted in insults from him and a bunch of his fans, so I figured, fuck it, he won't miss me, I won't miss him.<br />
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Now I do know that Thunderf00t has made 4 or more videos about coughlan by now. And I do know that for quite some time coughlan was not even bothering to respond. He slipped a bit today, when he addressed some of the ridiculous accusations Thunderf00t made against him, and to be honest, I can't blame him. When a large channel accuses you of some wrong doings, what you do want to do is defend yourself, don't you? Well, that is how I felt back then as well. But ended up not bothering anymore. Just to be told that nobody is interested in my drama and to shut the fuck up, when I hadn't said a peep about it for three months. So I just wanted to relish this moment, where I could say the following sentence:<br />
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@coughlan616 @Thunderf00t STFU, nobody is interested in your fucking drama.<br />
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There, I'm all done. Justice is served. ;-)Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4545208049798072255.post-26934779722568629122013-01-07T19:21:00.002+01:002013-01-07T19:29:36.260+01:00Breaking the SilenceWhen dealing with people who are mentally ill, I usually cut them a lot of slack, because I know myself how hard it is to deal with mental illness, and that sometimes you can't help it and act somewhat irrationally. But when a person is using their mental illness as an excuse to constantly harm others, and continues to do so despite being ignored in the hopes they would eventually stop, it's time to speak out and put the record straight. I'm sorry it had to come to this, and if you are not interested in personal drama, I advise you to simply not read on from here.<br />
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Yes, this post is about Alex, formerly known as Al1981X, now operating under the name <a href="http://www.youtube.com/channel/UCwaijTUx6SOOjswSHdregag" target="_blank">AllBabies AreRapists</a>.<br />
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First I would like to address the series of seven videos that man has made about me, after our relationship ended, and I may add that he did that completely unprovoked. I did not contact him anymore, I did not talk about him publicly, I simply moved on, and I think that was his main problem, as can be heard in his videos, which were originally uploaded to his old channel and then mirrored by none other than dearest xxxild, on a channel she specifically created for that purpose. But this blog is not about her, so let's continue. I suggest you watch it all <a href="http://www.youtube.com/user/xAl1981x/videos?view=0&flow=grid" target="_blank">here</a> in order to understand the points I am addressing below.<br />
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Claims made in Following Felida Chapter One 'Christmas 2011':</h4>
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1. He was flattered by the attention I gave him.</h3>
Actually, I gave him no more or less attention than I gave to anyone else in the group. I actually had my eyes set on someone else at the time, but knew I'd have no chance with that person for various reasons. In that group we all had quite a lot of talk with sexual innuendo, and after one of such group talks, it was Alex who approached me in private, suggesting he wanted to get to know me better, which led to our first time cybersexing.<br />
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2. He claims that I was his Domme and he was my sub.</h3>
Nothing could be further from the truth, and this is a blatant lie. While I am a Domme for the most part, I made it perfectly clear that I valued him as a partner, not a submissive, and there were multiple occasions where we reversed roles in our sexual play. In our everyday lives, he took on a much more dominant role than I did, mainly because I was a push over at the time, but I will get into that later.<br />
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3. His OCD</h3>
While I did watch the film dirty, filthy love as he suggested and desperately tried to understand him, he continuously used his OCD as an excuse to be vile towards me without the need to apologize for his behaviour. Anyone who watches that film will also see the abuse the environment of the person with OCD is suffering from, as well as the immense burden someone without OCD is carrying, when trying to learn about it. He also claims he was under the impression I was stable at the time. Either he paid no attention to anything I said then, or he simply chose to ignore it, because he should have been well aware that I was anything but fine at the time, however, he constantly put his own mental issues before mine, expected me to be accomodating to his regular outbursts, yet denied me any understanding in regards to my own condition.<br />
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4. Elephants</h3>
Yes, we did establish quickly, that I have a concentration problem. The way it manifests is that I can only concentrate on one thing at a time and everything else is just a blur. This means, for example, that when I am typing or reading something, I can not simultaneously listen to someone. It can happen, that in the middle of a conversation something else catches my attention (such as an instant message coming in while I am in a skype call, at which point anything said in such a call might be drowned out while I am reading the message). I used to often try to follow both, but quickly learned that this is not possible. What he however describes wrongly is my reaction to his "monkey blood-whiskey" story. At no point did I refuse to believe that he had just told me such a story, on the contrary, I have a history of my children abusing this problem of mine to get permission for things they normally wouldn't get when I can actually hear what they are saying, for example asking me for permission to sleep over at a friend's house during a school night while I am typing something (I used to work from home occasionally, because it made it easier for me to concentrate there rather than sitting at a busy office with people constantly talking), and I quickly established with my children that asking me permission for anything while I am clicking away on the keyboard or looking at my screen was not a valid permission. My actual reaction was laughter, because he got away with telling me such a story and getting no reaction other than "hmmm, sure, yeah" out of me, which was such obvious proof that he didn't have any of my attention at all, and myself being quite shocked at how long my mind had wandered off to something else. At no point did I state that I didn't believe him, and I find it quite malicious that he is so blatantly abusing one of my mental issues to twist it into a story to make me feel bad. We had agreed that he would make up stories like that now and then when he felt my mind had wondered off, just to be sure that when he said something important, I wouldn't just nod it off without actually hearing it, and we both thought it was a funny way of tackling the problem. It's quite sad to now see him abuse this for ammo against me.<br />
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5. He claims I said I always have to be in a relationship</h3>
This is absolutely not correct. What I did state is that I am not good at being alone. And that was as a response to him asking me to give him time to decide whether he still wanted to be with me or not. I am not good at being alone means I will eventually consider myself single, go out and have sex and be open to the possibility that I may end up in another relationship with someone. This does in no way mean I am craving a relationship or that I need one. I was fine being single for well over a year and had my fun. That does not mean I was alone.<br />
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6. Why I did not postpone my visit</h3>
He claims I had plenty of things to do and put visiting him above taking care of my issues in order to get my children back. Nothing could be further from the truth, so here is why I did not postpone: My biggest problem with my household was the junk that had accumulated due to me being a compulsive hoarder (commonly referred to as Messie in German, and I falsely assumed that this word was commonly used in the English language as well, which is why I didn't explain it to Alex in more detail earlier. Something he knew about before making his videos though, and failed to mention). Due to various circumstances I was not able to remove all the junk without help, so I did what cleaning I could do before my trip, but anything beyond that I had to wait for an appointment with a company that specialises in clearing out the places of compulsive hoarders. That appointment was not until April, so I was stuck sitting on my thumbs in a place I hated, without my children, and completely unable to progress any further until the appointment. When talking the situation over with my psychiatrist, she suggested I take a break from what she referred to as my self-made prison, either by going on vacation or if needed even checking into a clinic, just to get out of there for a while. When I told her I had already booked tickets to England, she encouraged me to go, especially since my good friend Rachael had offered me to stay in her beautiful little house in a very nice and remote area in Norfolk, just the kind of setting I would need to calm down and find a bit of peace. Alex knew that, because I told him about it when he suggested I can postpone my visit, so he is definitely twisting the truth in that part of the video.<br />
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7. A reason why he couldn't fly to me</h3>
It is not surprising why he dismisses that point so quickly without actually giving a reason, because he never had any true reason. On various occasions he claimed he didn't have the money, although as he said himself in his video, the flight would have been rather cheap, and considering he was able to afford a bottle of whisky almost daily, he would have had the money within less than a week, if he had lowered his booze consumption just slightly, a point which we argued about on a regular basis. At one point he even told me point blank that I should not make him choose between myself and alcohol, as he would pick the alcohol over me. That should have caused my alarm bells going off, and it did, but I chose to ignore it, because at that time I was at my lowest mentally. I had just had my children removed from my household, lived in a dump I hated, and the only person I thought I could depend on at the time told me alcohol was more important to him than me. And while he became verbally abusive whenever he drank, I chose to put up with it, because I felt at the time like losing yet another person I loved would kill me. Every time I brought up the issue of him possibly visiting me, even if it was just telling him when flights would be cheap, he would flip out on me and tell me that I am putting pressure on him. The truth is more likely that he simply didn't want to come visit, because it was much more convenient to not have to put any effort whatsoever into this relationship, knowing I would instead.<br />
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1. He initiated the first physical intimacy</h3>
What he neglects to mention is why I found him oddly shy and reserved to begin with. After having shared plenty of intimacy via webcam during skype calls, I was extremely happy to see the man I felt so close to already, but when he got off the coach at Stansted, he was even reluctant to give me a hug. He told me later that he was going to greet me with a handshake instead, which I didn't expect after all the adorable texting back and forth. I didn't become aware of his reluctance until I threw my arms around him and kissed him, at which point I noticed him stiffen up. I wasn't sure at the time what to make of it, so I backed off, thinking that perhaps my physical appearance bothered him. This has something to do with my self-perception. I know I am overweight, and while I am aware that my outward appearance should not matter to someone who loves me for who I am, I have very low self esteem when it comes to my body and need constant reassurance from my partner. Yes, this is one of my mental issues, and it makes me quite clingy. I need my partner to show that he doesn't mind my body, and that includes showing who he is with in public. Alex shied away so quickly, that it was an instant and completely shattering blow to my self esteem, so I removed myself from possible rejection by simply backing off and crawling back into my shell, and I stayed there until he later on initiated our first physical intimacy in the most unromantic way possible: By suggesting I give him that blowjob I had promised. This, in my mind, confirmed further, that he wanted nothing to do with my body, so I was even more reluctant to show myself to him without clothes on. His further behaviour seemed to confirm this more and more, and throughout our relationship he was quite reluctant when it came to touching me, even when we became more comfortable around each other.<br />
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2. Felida wanted to talk about an ex who had died by his own hand a day earlier</h3>
Firstly, that person was not an ex, he was merely someone who abused my vulnerability in a bad situation to take advantage of me sexually. Secondly, he did not kill himself, he died of organ failure. Thirdly, I didn't want to talk about him, we were just talking and somehow the issue of that person came up, if I remember correctly, it was even Alex who brought him up while we talked about the recent deaths of various YouTubers, since there had been a few over the past months.<br />
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3. Felida seemed pleased the man was dead</h3>
This is a blatant lie. I did say that I did not care about his death either way, which I think is only fair, considering the hell that person put me through. It is also a lie that Alex didn't know about what that person had done to me. I didn't laugh, I didn't smirk, I simply refused to fake some kind of remorse over someone's death.<br />
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4. Felida wanted to have sex again, I didn't.</h3>
Considering the first sex he was referring to was simply me giving him a blowjob and not getting anything out of it myself, yes, I wanted sex. He didn't seem as opposed as he now makes it out to be. If he didn't want sex, he never said so, and he willingly participated, although the sex itself was disappointing and continued to be so throughout our relationship. I did however not want to hurt his feelings, so I continued faking orgasms, since he continued asking me whether he was good, paired with some completely unneeded penis size worries. In retrospect I have to say faking orgasms was probably a bad idea, especially because I was being dishonest with someone I cared about, but I did it to not hurt his self esteem the way he hurt mine.<br />
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5. By Felida's own admission she treated me like a possession and belittled me a bit</h3>
That is a complete and blatant lie, and I have no clue where the hell he pulled that one from. We were playfully bantering the entire evening we spent with our friends, all of us, including him. To now turn this into me belittling him and treating him like a possession is completely ridiculous, even more so when claiming that I admitted to doing so.<br />
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1. Domme/sub</h3>
Once again he claims I was his Domme, which is not true. Also, he appears to blame me for his feelings being hurt over being stronger than him physically. I'm awfully sorry, but I already faked orgasms to not hurt his fragile ego. There is only so much I can fake to appease a man's fragile ego.<br />
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2. Felida and the Silence</h3>
Alex admits in his own video that I did not rile him up against people, yet he felt he had to develope a hatred against certain individuals, as if I have some mental power over him, which in itself sounds quite crazy. What Alex neglects to mention is the fact that on the sheer basis of being with me, Alex was attacked by those individuals himself. They engaged with him, not the other way around. I know he will not admit this anymore, now that he has befriended those people, as they do with everyone who suddenly opposes me for whatever reason, but the evidence of those contacts is still safely stored on my PC, from downloaded videos over comments screenshots. The mentioned vitriol our conversations were made out of was often initiated by him. I repeatedly told him to just ignore their attacks, whether against me or himself, and that eventually they would go away. Something I had a hard time learning in the past. These people function in a very simplistic way: They throw bile your way and hope for a response, just to quotemine you. The more upset you are, the more ammunition you give them. Alex however insisted that I report to him every time one of them contacted me. He also insisted I supply him with everything I knew about them, from personal details over who they are friends with to things they said and how they acted. I often told him I simply didn't want to bother with it anymore, at which point he would get upset with me, so to appease him I gave him what he wanted, and in return he dropped docs, threatened them with revealing personal things and waged a complete war on them, which they then blamed me for and he now does as well. He is not only being dishonest now, but is also neglecting to tell the story about how he pressured me to continue getting involved by supplying him with information. At that time I simply wasn't strong enough to oppose him, and as a consequence I am now being blamed for his behaviour while he claims to be the innocent victim.<br />
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1. Felida told me she loves me while belittling me </h3>
Let's make one thing perfectly clear: When I love someone, I tell them so. Sometimes too often, agreed, but it simply slips out. I wear my heart on my sleeve, and when I am in a situation that reminds me why I love someone, it pops out of my mouth. That however does in no way mean that I do not criticise the person I love, when he/she acts out of line. Alex however can not handle criticism well. There were plenty of occasions where I tried to explain to him why his actions were not welcome, try to make him see where he behaved in a very hurtful manner, and I assume he considers those situations belittling him, when actually it is pointing out how he is being extremely hurtful towards others. A prime example is the fight we continued referring to as 'The Omelette'. To this day he believes that he did absolutely nothing wrong, and that I am the one to blame for it all, that I overreacted, that I have no reason to complain. So what is this Omelette? It occurred during a time when I was still in the process of regularly getting my house inspected to check on the progress made, in order to get my children back. It was the weekend, and I had an inspection following on Monday, so I wanted to do as much as I could over that weekend, but I also wanted to spend some time with Alex. We were both online in the morning, and as every day, were talking in our regular skype group, but he said he had a few things to do and would be back later. Considering I had plenty of cleaning to do myself, I asked him when he would be back, so we would be able to spend some time together in between our other activities. His response was to tell me that he didn't know, but that I could edit a video for him in the meantime (at the time I was editing most of his videos for him, since he didn't know how to). I told him I had other things to do that were more important, and that I just wanted a rough estimate on when he'd be back, so I could make time for him then. I never got a proper response, which annoyed me quite a bit, but I left it at that, went to cleaning and simply hoped that by checking into the skype call now and then I'd notice when he's back. Later in the day, I got lucky and he was back in the call, so I took a break from cleaning to spend some time with him. However, he told me that he had to go do something else again and that he'd be back later. Once again I asked him for a rough estimate, because I didn't feel like periodically checking the skype call yet again. And once again he suggested I can use the time he is gone to edit his video for him. At that point I did get quite snide with him, yes, but I am sure you can understand why. He knew about my situation, knew about the inspection coming up, knew I had things to do, yet rather than simply giving me a rough estimate of when he'd be back for us to have some quality time, he suggested I do something for him again. So I responded with "I don't need occupational therapy, I have plenty of things I can fill my time with while you are gone. I asked you for a time when you'd be back, not something to occupy myself with while you're gone. Basically, I am telling you I am thirsty, and you are offering me a fucking omelette." You should also be aware that I asked him for a time for a reason. There had been many situations previous to that, where he told me he'd be back to spend time with me later in the day, but then never showed up, making me feel like the stupid idiot waiting in the corner for Prince Charming to return and then being stood up. His reaction to that was to not speak to me for two straight days. And afterwards he kept insisting that I flipped out on him for no reason at all. He kept bringing this "fight" up every time we had an argument, claiming I was the one that acted out of line and that he had done nothing wrong at all, when he just took for granted that I'd always be there to edit his videos, be at his disposal and just wait until he has the good grace to show up and give me a few minutes of his precious time, as if I had no life other than him. Just to make peace, I later on suggested we simply misunderstood each other and to just drop it, and he later on held that against me as well, insisting I should have apologized for it, and that he was the nice one for dropping it when I did him so wrong. We had many more situations similar to that, where he simply refused to acknowledge my needs, was all selfish about things, then flipped out on me. Video editing is a good example. Rather than continuing to edit his videos for him, I suggested I teach him how to. Instead of accepting my offer, he flipped out on me, telling me he hated even the simplest video editing program, because he didn't understand it, and I was just making it worse by making him feel stupid by trying to explain it to him. He had no qualms however, sending me unedited video footage after footage and expecting me to edit it all for him, without so much as giving me even the slightest bit of credit for hours worth of work. I was simply being taken for granted, and I didn't like it at all. And every time I voiced that, I was made out to be the aggressor.<br />
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2. Felida threatened to close her channels down</h3>
As a matter of fact, me stating I would close my channels down had nothing to do with that "break", which were the two days he wouldn't speak to me, as seen in above chapter. I simply didn't want to be on YouTube anymore with all the shit that was going on in my real life and the trolls being worse than ever, mostly thanks to Alex feeding them. However, every time I so much as suggested I wanted to leave YouTube, Alex would throw a fit at me, so I decided to leave them open for the sake of him not flipping out on me. Alex himself threatened to close his channels down on multiple occasions, usually when I refused to give him the information about the trolls he asked me for, or when we had any kind of argument. Funnily enough, after he broke up, he also threatened to shut down his channels if anyone finds out about the breakup. I told him I really didn't care anymore if he did or not. His usual way of pressuring me into compliance didn't work anymore then, and I had stopped caring after the way he had treated me during that break up, which I will talk more about later.<br />
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3. I don't know if she remembers saying this, or if she notices she's flipped out on people</h3>
This is a wonderful attempt of his, trying to turn my concentration issues into a cover up for his lies. While I may not remember what people have said to me at times, I do very well remember what I say. And I never told him I would kill myself if he broke up. I am assuming that he has picked that wonderful bit of slander up from FreethinkerOnIce, who at another point claimed I threatened him with suicide, but failed to mention that I told him that not because I was threatened with being left, but because he kept contacting me, repeatedly calling both my hardline and cellphone and sending me messages on skype over and over again, the log of which I still have, and have also shown to people before to confirm that this indeed what had happened. In regards to my "flipping out", let's just say that Alex considered anything and everything flipping out, especially when he was drunk. I had one situation where I agreed to talk to him while cleaning, but would have to put him on speakers and talk to him from across the room. Since I had no clue how well my headset would pick up sound from that far away (as the microphone is normally an inch away from my mouth), I raised my voice a bit, so that he could still hear me, and he immediately claimed I was shouting at him and flipping out, and would not accept the perfectly reasonable explanation for why I raised my voice at all. At the same time he felt he was justified in shouting at me all the time, and not just shouting but also hanging up skype calls mid sentence, whenever he didn't like what I had to say, yet the one time I hung up on him because he hurled abuse at me, I was yet again the guilty party in his book.<br />
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4. I didn't remember this for a long time</h3>
Perhaps the reason he couldn't remember any suicide threat is because there simply was none, and he made it up in his sick mind in retrospect. Considering he is often delusional, I wouldn't be surprised. However, I will not allow that man to use his own delusions as "facts" against me.<br />
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1. Description of a 'Stairwell'</h3>
Let me ask you this: I have told you about the 'Omelette' above, and how Alex refused to talk to me for two days following that particular fight. Now what needs to be pointed out is that he did not specifically state he needed time off, he simply went offline and didn't give any indication when he'd be back or that he simply needed time away. And also funnily enough, he would interact with other people, but not with me around those times, until such a time where I would indicate that I am willing to take at least some of the blame for the situation. I'd say it's not a completely faulty assumption that this sort of behaviour indicates a form of punishment by ignoring. Something you would do to a toddler who is throwing a tantrum. You see, the way he described his 'Stairwell' to me was quite different, and he didn't explain it to me until after I'd already crawled back to him, playing the sorry party that committed all the sins of the world. He explained to me, that in stressful situations, he'd panic and run away, as an example using a situation on a job, where something became so stressful that he ran out into a stairwell that had no exit other than going right back out through the office, and he'd sit in that stairwell for hours. While I can understand and relate to such panic attacks, What he described in the video was not at all like this. He now claims a stairwell is calmly asking for a break, which is complete and utter bullshit. Also, if a stairwell actually were like the situation he described to me, he'd be too panicky to act normal around others, as if nothing were wrong. Yet he only ignored me during those times, which leads me to believe I am not the one projecting anything, but that I am spot on, and he is using his mental illness as a cover up to yet again shift blame on me.<br />
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2. Comparing a Stairwell to a Safe Word</h3>
As described above, he drew a completely wrong comparison. While I am not nor ever was his Domme, I am a Domme, and I understand safe words perfectly well. The thing about safe words however is, that the submissive has to actually use them. While it is true that a proper Domme will also notice when a submissive is in distress, may be in subspace and hence incapable of using the safe word, what Alex did in regards to his 'Stairwell' with me in no way indicates that it was a similar situation as in the actual stairwell he described to me in private and later in the video. Had he actually been in distress, he wouldn't have flaunted his "I am fine" attitude both on YouTube and in the group chat in his "in your face" manner.<br />
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1. Felida believes Ruby was naive</h3>
Did I have a right to assume that Ruby was overly naive in claiming she loved a person she had never laid eyes upon nor spoken to in at least a voice chat? I think I do. I am quite naive myself when it comes to trusting people, as my relationship with Alex proves, but even I would not have gone as far as assuming that someone who refuses to speak to me in voice chat or show him/herself on camera is actually in a loving and caring relationship with me. And while I do think Ruby did have her feelings hurt and that in actuality Ashe's actions were illegal (as Alex admits I supplied him with proof for), I do think I have every right to call someone naive when they are being naive.<br />
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2. Recording Ashe</h3>
Alex did inform me of his plans to record Ashe, and I informed him that after some research I found out that while recording him would be legal, distributing that recording would not be, according to UK law. Other than that I still don't get why he makes a whole chapter about Della with my name pinned to it. I neither advised him for or against recording Ashe, I simply dug up the according paragraphs in regards to the legality for him.<br />
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1. Felida and I were not communicating and she didn't care about my feelings at all</h3>
It is absolutely true that we were not communicating. I myself complained about that multiple times. Every attempt of mine to communicate, especially when it came to me trying to understand his mental condition better, was met with "I don't want to talk about this right now." Occasionally he'd respond with "I can't talk about this when I'm sober", yet when drunk he'd get easily aggravated over nothing, ending up in hurling abuse at me again. The claim that I didn't care about him at all is highly ridiculous. I put my own hurt feelings on the backburner so many times, just as to not upset him. Every time he yelled at me for no reason, every time he took out his aggression on me because something didn't work, every time he didn't know how to handle certain programs on his computer and then flipped out on me when I tried to explain it to him, either because I was "speaking in a language he didn't understand" when I assumed a certain basic knowledge, or when I was "patronizing him" when I tried to explain things in a more simplistic way. Trying to explain anything to Alex is walking on eggshells. If you don't give enough detail, he claims you are deliberately trying to make yourself look smarter than him, if you give too much detail, you're being patronizing. If you refuse to explain anything for fear of not managing the eggshell walk that day, you're flipping out for no reason, if you refuse to do his work for him because he refuses to learn himself, you are flipping out as well. In a perfect world according to Alex he is the only one allowed to yell abuse and demand you don't take it personally, he is the only one allowed to hang up on you when he feels you're not communicating properly, he is the only one that is allowed to take a break, because when you need one, you're throwing a fit, but he never is. I walked on eggshells throughout the entire relationship. In order to not hurt his feelings I faked orgasms, blamed my own body for him not wanting to touch me, took the blame for all his inadequacies, because of course it was all my fault for not explaining things right, when he didn't understand something, and it was also my fault for wanting to teach him how to do his own things rather than me simply doing them for him, because doing things for him was something I was expected to do at all times.<br />
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2. The yelling, the belittling, the symptoms of mental illness</h3>
Let's get this straight, the person doing the most yelling was him. But of course it was something I was supposed to tolerate, because it's part of his mental illness. The belittling, again, his interpretation of me trying to explain things to him, but using too much detail, because he had previously yelled at me for not being detailed enough. I never picked on him for symptoms of his mental illness, that is his own game. That is what he did throughout our relationship as well as his video series. Every time he caught me in a moment of attention lapse, he laughed about it endlessly and felt it was so funny to tell the story to others, especially that with the monkey blood-whiskey. The fact that I might find that embarrassing never occurred to him. He found it perfectly acceptable to joke at the expense of my mental illness, abuse my insecurity about myself and my love for him. If anyone is projecting now, it's him.<br />
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3. He wasn't doing well and I knew about it</h3>
First of all, he blatantly lies when he claims I knew about his symptoms (hairloss, diarrhoea, etc.) Cry me a fucking river at this point though. He clearly acknowledged my physical problems in the beginning of his video series. He knew I was never completely doing well. He had hairloss? Well, he never told me about it. However, I didn't see any hairloss when he showed himself to me on camera shortly before the break up. On the contrary, he had his hair, only he had dyed it red at the time and told me he was debating getting it cut short again. No mention of hairloss, no mention of illness. Sorry for not being a psychic. I guess I should have known that as well. And no, I never used me not being well to get him to talk to me again. Each time I clearly stated that we needed to communicate rather than him just not talking to me. There were plenty of times he refused to talk to me and acted like I did something wrong without even telling me what I supposedly had done. Way to go, Mr. Communicator.<br />
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4. Felida ignored discretion</h3>
In order to cover that, I think I'll first have to state how this breakup went about. It started with that argument about me supposedly yelling at him, when all I did was raise my voice when speaking to him from across the room. This happened on a Friday evening. As usual, he hung up on me, dismissing my explanation, and vanished, removing me from Skype. I had too much at stake to worry about his sensitive feelings, since that Friday my daughter had finally been allowed to move back in with me, which meant less time for him anyway, and a follow up inspection of my apartment on Monday. I did not hear from him again until Monday morning, when I received an email from him, in which he broke up with me, blaming me for everything but the Kennedy assassination. With an hour to go until my appointment, I wasn't in the best of state after receiving such an email (and what a cowardly way to break up anyway). So I poured my heart out to a close friend, one I know I can trust, and he managed to build me up again a bit, so that I was able to get on with that appointment reasonably well and get the final decision that it is fine for my daughter to be back home with me. Alex then threw a hissy fit at me, when he asked me if I had told anyone about the break up, and I answered him truthfully. This is the "indiscretion" he is referring to. Talking to a friend. I told him he had no say in who I talk to, especially now that we are broken up, and that was the last time we ever talked. I never once made a single video or public remark about the way he treated me until after he had released his video series, and even then I kept commenting to a minimum and soon after that decided to ignore him and his shenanigans completely, although he kept trying to provoke me.<br />
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This is indeed true. I did tell a mutual contact to tell him to go kill himself after he had broken up with me in such a cowardly way. What he neglects to mention is that within 5 minutes I also apologized for that harsh statement and explained that it was made out of anger and hurt feelings, and that I did not actually mean it.<br />
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I did no such thing. I simply decided to move on and made no secret of it. At no point did I contact him, send him a video or message of any sort. I simply continued living my life without allowing him to drag me down, and while doing so fell in love with someone. I see no reason to hide that just to spare his sensitive ego.<br />
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7. The greatest man that ever lived</h3>
Alex doesn't seem to understand a lot of things. Firstly, I never claimed that each man I was ever with was the greatest man that ever lived. On the contrary, I can count on the fingers of one hand (actually less) the great loves of my life, and anyone who knows me well enough know who they are. Did I love Alex? Well, I loved the person I thought Alex was. Unfortunately he turned out not to be what he seemed, partly due to my own projection of what I wanted him to be, partly due to his own deliberate deception. You see, there is a reason why I was never allowed to visit him in his own home, but instead we stayed either at my friend's house, his mother's house or even a hotel. Alex doesn't like talking about his past for a good reason, because it affects his present to this day. Mainly his place of residence, but also his employment situation, all things he never wanted to talk to me about, but that in retrospect I found out anyway. I am not going to disclose any of those things, since I am not going to stoop as low as he did, but had he been honest with me about all those things, I never would have entered into a relationship with him to begin with. So yes, I did love whom I thought him to be, but I can't possibly love who he actually is. I do however know my current partner very well. I have known him for years, we've been very close friends for a very long time. We just weren't ready for each other until recently. Is he the best man that ever lived? Probably not, because we all have our flaws. But he is a damn good man, and I can say that I can love him for who he is, because I know him for who he is. Something I can't say about Alex.<br />
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Actually no, I don't, because I haven't had my say until now. But here it is, my say. And I think it's only fair I get it as well, exposing this psychotic liar for who and what he is. He also keeps lying when he claims he won't be engaging any further. For months I have remained silent, hoping he would eventually just get over the fact that I am not dying from a broken heart and move on like I did, but he keeps it up and with every day of my silence becomes more and more vile, not only towards myself and my family, but also against friends of mine. Possibly in the attempt to get me to speak out, so here, I am handing you another victory, Alex. I am not ignoring you anymore. Is this what you wanted? Me telling people how abusive you actually are? You got it.<br />
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9. She sent a mutual friend to ask how I am</h3>
Not only did I send that mutual friend to inquire about his well being, I also sent that mutual friend his way to help him with his issues to begin with right after the breakup, told him what state I thought Alex was in, and to please be there for him, which he did. When I inquired about his well being, it was out of genuine concern. Only a person as psychotic as Alex could interpret something negative into this and take it as a reason to spread vile lies about someone. But I guess his mental illness is yet again a nice excuse for this sort of reaction.<br />
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10. Replaced</h3>
While I thought my friend's comment was absolutely hilarious, it was not initiated by myself, so I don't get why dear Alex gets all worked up over it and next has to ensure me that he can buy cock on the streets of London, or why I would have a problem with that. By all means, go get laid, Alex. Do it as often as you can. It might stop you from this unhealthy obsession you have over me, the person you didn't want to be with anymore, and who moved on, as you should have, months ago.<br />
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Again, I wasn't his Domme. We never had a safe word, never needed to, because this was not a Domme/sub relationship, although it's of course a lot easier for him now to claim that it was, simply to fit into the victim role much better. If anyone was abusive during our six months together, it was dearest Alex. And he continues to be, which I will show in the next chapters.<br />
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1. Unlike Alex, I will not blame his friends' behaviour on him, although I have to mention that he openly condones it, often encourages it. Alex's friend Gunderson has written a lovely butthurt poem about me, yet didn't like the response it received after it was pointed out to me, Alex's friend OldeVampyr has accused me of being behind arguments she has with friends of mine, Alex's newfound friends (the very same who formerly harassed him simply for being with me) now spout their vile crap about me on his YouTube channel and videos, encouraging him in his own vile behaviour which I will indulge in below, and are encouraged by him to continue, despite what he said in his video. The entire time I haven't responded to a single one of them, except Gunderson, because I simply couldn't resist that one. One of his friends, and I still do not know which one, forwarded some very personal information about something horrible that happened to my daughter while she was not in my care, to him, which is the reason I disassociated myself from almost every mutual friend, since I simply can't trust any of them until I find out who forwarded that information, which was then used by Alex in the most vile of ways.<br />
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2. Alex himself has, as already hinted above, written a poem about my daughter, in which he not only calls her a slut (she's only 12 years old), but also mentions her by her actual name. Basically, he did a case of victim blaming. To a child. To have a go at me. This all happened in the comment section of one of OldeVampyr's videos. And while OldeVampyr claims she removed it as soon as she saw it, I have to call her out on a lie, since she commented several times herself after said poem was already in her comment section. I doubt she didn't see it, she just chose to ignore it, until she heard that it was going to be flagged.<br />
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3. After his poem comment was removed, he made a video in which he again mocked my daughter for what had happened and laughed about the fact that he had written a poem about the incident, dropping her real name. He also claimed I neglected my daughter, leaving her alone at home for three days while I had a turn in the sheets with my boyfriend, and that the incident happened then, which is a blatant lie. Various people however believed him and posted all sorts of abuse about me. I never left my daughter alone at home for several days. The days he is referring to, my daughter was spending her summer break with her father, and the incident happened long before that, during the time I prepared my place for her return, meaning, while not in my care. Either way though, the care she was in was not neglecting either. A teenager can be expected to be alone at home for a few hours after school while the caretaker is at work. It happened during that time, and nobody is to blame but the person who committed the crime.<br />
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4. Alex continues attacking people for no reason at all. One prime example is another YouTuber who made a video that had nothing to do with Alex. Alex however thought the video was about him (because he is an egocentric maniac). The person did not much wrong either, he simply stated that he would not stay subscribed to personal drama and unsubscribe from anyone who would drag relationship issues out on YouTube. In return Alex wished death upon that person, hoping to witness his death within this year, along with a tirade of name calling.<br />
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5. Another example of Alex assuming I am behind everyone who has a fight with him is his hatred towards Mimica. Mimica and I had no contact whatsoever for months, yet Alex continues claiming that Mimica is fighting him on my orders, when actually Alex continues attacking Mimica repeatedly. He went as far as digging out an old video that Mimica made in anger ages ago, and that he deleted and publicly apologized for a long time ago, just to make him look bad.<br />
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6. Alex also has beef with GluteusIlluminatus, and again, is calling him my minion, as if Glute doesn't have a mind of his own. Yes, Glute and I are friends, but I don't need to order him around. I doubt he'd take orders, to be honest. However, when Alex himself talks shit about Glute all the time (mainly the lies he was fed by Ashley), he doesn't need to be surprised when Glute is a bit irritated.<br />
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7. Last target in Alex's path is Andr0idThePoet, who simply had objections to the way Alex handles the fight with Mimica. In return Alex accused him of harassment and mental illness bashing. How rich, coming from him, considering what he is doing to me.<br />
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8. And while Alex falsely accuses Mimica and GluteusIlluminatus with distributing child pornography, which in itself is illegal, he threatens to drop their docs, which is a combination that is potentially dangerous for those two. If his claim had any merit, he'd report them to the police, rather than hoping some angry mob will latch on to the accusations he so freely throws around along with what he believes to be their docs. At least with me he posts death threats directly.<br />
Fortunately all of his behaviour is documented. It's sad that it had to come to this, but that man needs help. And I don't mean help from online friends, but help from medical professionals. A sane person wouldn't do these things. I won't carry a grudge, but I will protect myself and my own from further attacks. <br />
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<br />Unknownnoreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4545208049798072255.post-21073873304054984252012-03-16T19:11:00.004+01:002012-03-18T00:18:38.808+01:00To StealthBadger, from my inner FelidaDear Badger,<br /><br />as you may be able to see in my previous blog entry, I have not been on my regular YouTube channels for some time now. I have at the same time posted a rather personal message on Facebook, giving a more detailed reasoning for my YouTube absence. As someone who until today found himself on my personal Facebook friend list, you may have seen that post as well. Had you up until the point I privated my channels followed them, you would also have personally witnessed some of the things that caused me to take this step. But let's not talk about your observational skills right now. Instead, let's address the reason for this blog entry here.<br /><br />It was brought to my attention that you had in fact made a blog entry about me. How? Freethinkeronice, whom we will discuss briefly in my response to you soon, decided to message various friends of mine, claiming some kind of victory over me because you had decided to attack me on <a href="http://www.stealthbadger.net/2012/03/to-felida-the-geek-from-my-inner-badger/">your blog</a>. So naturally I went and looked. And while I initially responded on there briefly, I do feel I haven't fully addressed the issues you have mentioned, leaving room for you, or others, to perpetuate this further. I will therefor now give you a detailed response to everything you addressed, in the hopes to clear up any miscommunication.<br /><br /><blockquote>Hello, Felida. For anyone else reading these words, this will be a bit confusing (though perhaps entertaining). For you, well, the last six calendar months or so have been filled with excitement for you, and I think I’ll add a nice red cherry to the top of your shit sundae.</blockquote>I am not quite sure why you think discussing my personal life may have some entertainment factor for others, unless of course you are referring to the bullshit that you heard through the grapevine and are now echoing. But what I find much more curious is your statement in regards to the last six calendar months having been filled with exitement for me. I'm still unsure which events you are referring to. Are you talking about my health? My sex life? My family situation? My work? I personally didn't find anything particularly exciting, except perhaps the fact that I ended up in a relationship with someone I care about very much, while dealing with other factors that still influence my life negatively, such as my health issues. But surely that would be of no interest to you, or would it?<br /><br /><blockquote>This little missive (just for you!) is inspired by your actions towards me about a year ago, or more specifically one action with a dollop of long-term deceit-through-omission on top. Simply put, you lied to me to my face in Liverpool, after I made it clear that I was making a real-life effort on your behalf, acting on the claims you had made to me. That really wouldn’t be so bad, except that you did this in front of other people, and that I said very clearly that if you were lying to me, that I would bury you. Now out of sheer self-interest, I’ve got to deliver, or it will be clear to anyone familiar with what happened that using me as a white knight to deflect drama is an acceptable tactic, and I’m afraid I can’t have that at all.</blockquote><br />My actions towards you about a year ago? You mean when I told you about the exact events going on in regards to YouTube bullies, my personal health and the effect all this had on my physical and mental health? There was no deceit and there was no omission. There most definitely were no lies. I do find it rather interesting that you should now suddenly think I did. Have I tried using you as a white knight? Not at all. I simply told you about the effects the behaviour of a known troll group had on my personal life as well as the life of my family. You were the one who decided to get involved based on that. The only thing I ever asked of you is to not believe accusations without proper evidence. You were the one suggesting to talk to certain people on my behalf. All I wanted then, and all I want now, is to simply be left alone and not have my privacy violated. I think it's a fair thing to ask for.<br /><br /><blockquote>There are parts of this post that are not for the squeamish; you have been warned.</blockquote>And it was this sentence that indicated that you were not going to simply discuss my behaviour on YouTube or in Liverpool, but that your actual intention was to dive into my oh so kinky personal life. And frankly, I wonder why someone of your format should feel the need to do so. I thought you'd be above that. I guess I was wrong.<br /><br /><blockquote>It really does boggle my mind when people do what you did, though. It took me a long term to come up with the words to describe it, it’s so foreign to me (and I may not have done that good a job of it, even though people do it to each other all the time, I just try not to get involved in it). Bluntly, you implicitly encouraged me to speak to others on your behalf under false pretenses – basically protesting innocence and letting me act on that assumption.</blockquote><br />And this is where I must wonder what the hell you were smoking when writing this blog entry. I implicitly encouraged you to speak to others on my behalf? No, Badger, you offered it, thinking you would be able to get people to back off. And I gladly took you up on the offer, because I wanted some peace and quiet. There were no false pretenses. I hadn't done jack shit to any of these people, while everything I told you about the things happening to me were absolute truth. I did receive the phone calls to my house, two of which were picked up by my children. I did get massively flagged. I received a death threat from Zierota himself, a video which he later on removed, but which I have to this day stored on my computer for evidence. The harassment continues on and on, and I have evidence for it still on this very blog for you to look at (and plenty more stored on my computer). My only fault during that time was to even react to them and responding, first in videos, later on in comments, which, at your very own suggestion, I then stopped doing.<br /><br />For you the issue was apparently over the moment I stopped responding. But not once did you see that in actuality it was NOT over. I kept receiving messages, my personal issues were still spread over YouTube by a bunch of sock accounts. My daughter had to close down her channel because they advertized it as "my sock", sending trolls to her channel to harass me. You didn't care about any of that anymore, just as long as I stopped responding. You did not once ask yourself what this did to me or my children. The past year has been hell, and I am sure the very people you are now defending are gloating over the fact I now admit it got to me, and it got to me just as much as they hoped to. My mental health went down the drain. But who cares, as long as you don't have to see anything from me in your inbox, right?<br /><br /><blockquote>Not such a big deal in the greater scheme of things, I agree. Your attempt to use me as a shield is also unimportant; I only started talking with you about AoD because I wanted to minimize the damage, and I’m not that good a shield to begin with. Lastly, your perhaps-not-deliberate attempts to isolate me from the other people who were in on your shenanigans wasn’t that remarkable, but certainly was annoying. Again, since my silly ass didn’t factor in how desperately y’all wanted to fight, and how determined all of y’all were to get in the last blow, all that is a wash. I accept that I chose to do it, and that makes it my problem. However, I made a promise to you as I mentioned earlier, and I intend to keep it. I made it quite clear that if you were lying to me, that I was going to react badly, and here we are.</blockquote>Use you how? By asking you to examine evidence rather than believing wild accusations? Your "help" consisted of telling me to shut up, and I did just that, while suffering a whole fuckload with every message I received from them. So you wanted to "minimize" damage? On whose side? Because the damage done to me was never minimized, Badger. Theirs may have been, because at your request I stopped responding, I stopped defending myself against the most ridiculous made up accusations. However, when did I try to isolate you from anyone? And who from? Because there were no people "in on my shenanigans". If you are talking about me talking in a separate Skype group to other people who were also victims of the very same trolls, I'm awfully sorry I didn't invite you into that group. But rest assured you are now and have always been free to talk to DeathOfSpeech and ReligionIsCancer. However you got it into your head that I was isolating you from anyone is beyond me. Also, you may wish to review the "desperation to fight". All I ever did is defend myself against false accusations and the spreading of my personal information, and at your own request I even stopped doing that. They however have not stopped throwing these false accusations and personal things around to this very day. So how exactly was I lying to you, Badger? I'm still quite baffled you make that claim.<br /><br /><blockquote>So we’ve covered your flagging, you inciting to riot, your little kindergarten clique games, and you quite happily allowing me to wander in front of you as some kind of character witness. So not talking about any of the things above, what’s left to discuss? What can I do or say in a video that would be an appropriate response, with all that I’ve excluded?</blockquote><br /><br />You have covered my flagging? Oh, you mean the flagging of videos that either dropped my docs or linked to places that dropped my docs. The videos that revealed very private information about me, most of them even false information. Sorry, Badger, but I am well within my rights to flag down videos that discuss my sex life, my home address, my children, my health without my consent. Surely you must have some understanding for that. See, YouTube put that flag button there for a reason. And while it is often abused to silence people who talk about legitimate issues, I don't consider it an abuse to have material removed that discusses a person's private life, or worse, gives out their personal details. While I may have slipped on that issue myself with other people in the past, I have also later on removed such videos and apologized, because it was out of line and they would have been well within their rights to flag me for those. I guess that is the whole point. You disagree with me on whether people are allowed to drag another person's personal things all over the web. Fair enough, you are allowed to disagree with me there. But funnily enough, the law in my country as well as YouTube ToS agree with me, not you. As I stated before, feel free to discuss my misconduct on YouTube all you want, call me names, for all I care, but my personal life is just that: PERSONAL.<br /><br />Inciting riot? When and where? When I vented about how the things done to me by these trolls made me feel? That's all I ever did, Badger. I vented. You listened. Wander in front of me as some kind of character witness? I simply wanted you to see me for who I am, not for what some people would like to make me out to be. I asked you to apply reason and examine evidence, giving you my side of the story, encouraging you to ask them for their "evidence". You independently came to the conclusions you came to, so don't try to now blame me for somehow influencing you. You being influenced seems to be what is happening now. Because as you may recall, I never once asked you to not listen to them, on the contrary, I asked you to hear both sides. Now however, you are attacking me without ever having heard my side of the story, and seem to have made up your mind already. That's what I call bias, dearest Badger.<br /><br /><blockquote>Let’s begin with putting what you do in proper perspective. If I were to believe your words and that you’re completely innocent of all (or most) wrongdoing, then I’d be believing that you are some kind of morally superhuman angel who just happens to be both wholly guileless and infinitely gullible, and also that against all odds you manage to consistently be surrounded with malicious liars, never managing to detect them before you are horribly maligned and terrorized by said evil-doers. I don’t think I buy that. </blockquote><br />Oh, how well sarcasm suits you. Or not. Fact is that yes, I can be a gullible fool that trusts people way too quickly. One of my biggest flaws is that I am prone to falling for compliments. Kiss my ass and gain my trust. It happens a lot. Not necessarily because I enjoy having my ass kissed, but because I am a sucker for being liked and loved. Because whether you believe it or not, I am a person with rather low self esteem, and those close enough to me know that. Yes, it feels good to be complimented, it feels like someone cares about me, and I am entirely too trusting entirely too fast. And for that often get burned. I also happen to like voicing my opinion when I think something is unfair, even if it isn't for my own benefit at all, on the contrary, even when it is detrimental to my own standing. Combine the two, and you can see how someone like me can make many enemies fast. I trust people I shouldn't yet trust with the most personal things, then I piss them off because I see them treat someone else (occasionally myself as well) unfairly, and they have all the ammo against me they need to "get me back" for not having their backs.<br /><br /><blockquote>By the same token, I don’t buy your appeals to absurdity that go with the several times in jest you have claimed responsibility for a long list of tragic world events in order to make the point that you can’t be guilty of all that’s claimed about you. The simple truth is that you do a lot of stupid, petty, childish bullshit, some of which is mentioned above, but you almost never do it alone. No, you are a social creature, and you love external affirmation. </blockquote>And again, here is what I am guilty of: I have low self esteem that goes hand in hand with my dysthymia, which makes me prone to mistake false flattering for genuine affection. I am also guilty of having a temper. I am also guilty of defending myself when falsely accused. Oh wait, where is the guilt in that? It always appeared to me that in your book that was the worst possible thing I can do. Defend myself against false accusations. And when I try to take it in good humour, mocking the very accusations thrown at me, it's not good either? Gosh, Badger, you are hard to please. Shall I remain a doormat then? Lay down for anyone to walk all over me? May I have another, please, Sir? Yes, I am a social creature. I need the external affirmation, but not for the reasons you claim. I need it because without it I feel unloved. It's part of the dysthymia, and I am fucking working on it, but all this shit is not making it any easier, you know?<br /><br /><blockquote>Unfortunately for you, this means it all eventually comes out if someone is willing to wait and listen for long enough. There are many conflicts you’ve been involved in, and the past year-and-some of digging up information has been full of interesting revelations, the most interesting being confirmation that you have the habit of participating in some naughtiness with someone, and then when there is a falling out with that person, wedging as much of the blame as possible for the shenanigans on your erstwhile compatriot.</blockquote><br />No, unfortunately this means that I am too trusting, and often that trust is abused the moment someone doesn't like the way I handle things. The past "year and a half" of quotemines and doctored bullshit you most likely received I have already seen and dismissed. And so have all others who have seen full logs of what actually happened. Logs I could have supplied you with as well, but now I don't think I will, since you already made up your mind anyway. You may get luckier interviewing the other parties that "poor innocent person" you are referring to has contacted and harassed over the past three months. I'm fairly sure you will then see where I am coming from.<br /><br /><blockquote>By the way, Felida, this would be why I distanced myself from you so quickly, and so completely after the meetup in Liverpool. It was already obvious that you tended to encourage and mirror the worst in people, and I wanted no part of that recurring theme. Once you’d – and I’d like to repeat this for emphasis – lied to my face about your snow-white innocence when I was offering help, I knew that for a time at least, I was only of minimal use to you as a character reference and of little interest at all because I wasn’t going to be participating in your childish bullshit. This left me with a free hand and the knowledge that as long as I was marginally less sloppy than you, that I could dig around undisturbed.</blockquote><br />Let me rephrase this for you:<br /><br />"I got all cozy with you until you trusted me, knowing you are a trusting fool, and then kept that trust you had in me to dig around in your personal shit to find more ammo for my new friends, keeping track of everything I said, while you may have worded something sloppily, letting your guard down, since you thought you could trust me. Mwahahaha."<br /><br />My, my, what a nice person you are. So who actually was lying here, Badger? You or me? You're openly admitting to getting close enough to me to try and dig up shit on me, and you kept quiet until... when exactly? Oh, until someone with a bit of a butthurt over me being in a relationship whinges about my evilness. Why not earlier? Could you not find any dirt on me, because you noticed I was completely open and honest with you? Gosh, what a surprise.<br /><br /><blockquote>Now while you’re thinking about what you’re going to do in response to this, I’d just like you to consider that I held off on responding for a year, not out of the goodness of my heart, but in order to both prepare and wait for the proper moment. You now have a minimum lower bound for how long I will hold off on retaliating in order to make sure of my facts, and figure out just how to share how I felt about your dishonesty without doing so in a way that endanger anyone who was not directly involved, or cross any boundaries that might cause a backlash in my non-internet life.</blockquote>If I were one of your friends, I'd now be outraged and ask you if that's a threat to blackmail me into being silent. But lucky for you I am not one of them, so I am again suggesting that the reason for your "long silence" was the fact that despite trying to dig up dirt on me you didn't find anything. Your dishonesty in this matter however, pretending to be someone who cared, when all you wanted was to get close enough to get the paparazzi shot, is quite disturbing. Boy, oh boy, did I misjudge your character there. Story of my life, I guess. So go ahead and bash me publicly, just like your friends. Talk shit about who I am with, how fat I am, how I should get a job or clean my house, diagnose my medical conditions, talk about my children. Not like none of this has happened to me before. I am sort of growing immune to that by now. You see, every time my personal life gets spread on YouTube, here is what I do: I flag it. Legitimately so. If you feel the need to go through that process, so you can make a butthurt video claiming I false flagged you, be my guest. As I said, I don't really watch YouTube anymore. My channels have been privated and all you will find of me is me singing. Any of this bullshit brought to that channel will be deleted without a response and if violating my privacy it will be flagged. I hope we understand each other there. If not, your loss, not mine.<br /><br /><blockquote>Ultimately, I don’t particularly feel like arguing over hearsay, so I’ll just point out a few things that you’ve made very plain; I think you’ll find what comes out when you put all the facts together to be quite interesting.</blockquote><br />Hot damn, you could have fooled me here. So far, hearsay is all we have discussed. Actually, that is what your entire blog post is based on. But let's continue:<br /><br /><blockquote>First, you’re involved in the BDSM community. No shame in that.</blockquote><br />And why do you feel the urge to publicly talk about this? Aside from the fact that I haven't made this public on YouTube until I was forced to do so by the person you are defending in your blog entry. You know, the personal business stuff. It's personal.<br /><br /><blockquote>Second, you are having an ongoing dispute with a former submissive. I’ve had that happen before. Seen it happen all the time. No biggie.</blockquote><br />I'm not having an ongoing dispute. He is. I blocked him from any possible way to contact me, since I have no interest communicating with that psycho lunatic, who, by the way, has stalked other Dommes in the past. But surely you already heard his story of "we made up", which is bullshit. I happen to have e-mail correspondence with her proving otherwise. But of course he always finds enablers willing to bring his bullshit to my doorstep. Congratulations, you are one of them now. So no, I don't have a dispute. The dispute has been settled: He's not my sub anymore, I am happy with it. Further communication not needed. See where this is going?<br /><br /><blockquote>Third, you’ve taken a different submissive quite publicly, including flogging the sub with a whip that you used on the previous one. Now that’s arguably in poor taste, but not awful… unless, of course, you haven’t been cleaning the whip between uses. If I recall correctly, you were quite plain about enjoying leaving deep marks when flogging someone. As you should know, this means that small amounts of blood such would be left on the whip, which means in turn that your current sub is physically connected to your former one in a very real sense – again only if you haven’t been cleaning the whip.</blockquote>This is where it actually becomes amusing how much you go on the very hearsay you claim you don't want to go by. I have quite publicly engaged in a relationship. Not taken on a submissive. Equal partners. And I have never once flogged him, not with the whip I used on that sub, nor with any other item. Wherever you get that idea, I have no clue, but boy, does this statement make you look like a drama whore. Also, I was not quite plain about enjoying leaving deep marks on a sub, on the contrary. I did state that I enjoyed seeing marks that vanished within the day. What I was keen about was the whimpering. As a matter of fact, I specifically stated I don't like drawing blood, even in tiny amounts. However, why am I even telling you this? Because frankly, other than you drama whoring, I see no reason why you would have brought this up.<br /><br /><blockquote>Your current sub (I hope he’s reading this) would be in an excellent position to know, because If you are cleaning it, you have alcohol swabs or some such and something like mink oil close at hand (some Doms give the subs the duty of cleaning the whip, some don’t) because cleaning and sterilizing a whip or flogger properly dries out the leather. If, on the other hand, you were cleaning it and not oiling it, the cracked leather would cut your sub’s skin. Again, just to make this point clear: if you aren’t cleaning the whip (read as: if you are as lazy and sloppy about being a Dom as you are everything else) then from an epidemiological standpoint your current and former subs are almost as closely connected as if they’d had sex together (I really hope he’s reading this and thinking about the minute flakes of freethinkeronice’s skin and blood being driven into his back).</blockquote>Once again, I have no "current sub". But my (equal) partner has read this blog entry, as I am sure he informed you about. While I appreciate your suggestion in regards to how to properly clean a whip, which of course was unneeded, as I already know how to, I am not too fond of you going the "lazy and sloppy" route. This sounds very much like the insults dear freethinkeronice is using when he refers to me. And surely you are not one of the people who will bash someone suffering from dysthymia as lazy and sloppy. Surely you will acknowledge how depression can wear you down to the point you have no energy left for anything else. And surely you will also ask the person you are getting all this information from for full logs where I informed him on multiple occasions why I could not handle him because of my depression, yet he kept begging to please be allowed to continue being my sub. Surely you will also see how due to being utterly exhausted I simply didn't have the strength for the longest time to tell him to fuck off and cope with his stalking behaviour afterwards (which he is displaying now).<br /><br /><blockquote>Fourth, and more interestingly, you have clearly and unequivocally taken a new sub while you are in a loud and public dispute with a former one. Not only are you encouraging the new guy to take abuse from the old one for you, you’re doing nothing to shield him from it. If anything, all you’ve done is portray yourself as a victim, and mocked the criticism of you as overblown hyperbole; which makes me ask, who exactly is the Dominant in your relationship, and are you just Topping from the bottom?</blockquote>The amount of ROFL in this post is absolutely fantastic. I stress again, that I have an equal partner, not a sub. Also, I am in no loud dispute, as stated before, I am trying my best to avoid his hissy fits, while HE is in a public dispute all by himself, encouraged by people like yourself. I am sure once you get to meet him better, you will see how much of a mental case he really is, and how detrimental to his own health your encouragement of his behaviour is. If you cared just a tiny bit about his well-being, you would encourage him to get help rather than encourage him to attack me. Again, I have logs and evidence of his previous psychotic behaviour and him admitting to having a problem with obsession and paranoia, and I genuinely tried to help him throughout the entire time he was submitting to me, but whatever help he may have gotten by now, I am sure people like you have destroyed that bit. Am I encouraging my new boyfriend to take abuse from freethinkeronice? Surely not. I have asked him, for the mental health of freethinkeronice, whom I know to be mentally ill, to not respond, at times unsuccessfully so. Have I done nothing? Wrong again. I have a phone recording of me talking to the Belgian police, I also have filed a police report here in Germany. "PROOF OR GTFO" you may say. Well, tough luck, my friend, you have revoked all your privileges to evidence from my side by means of your blog entry. The evidence is in the hands it belongs to: the cops. The nice thing is: This time, since I actually have a name and location within the EU, they will most likely not just drop it due to lack of public interest. Yay for me, eh?<br /><br /><blockquote>Even more than all of that, I’m puzzled by the fact that you participate in internet drama despite claiming many times that it actually endangers you because of the heart condition. I’m puzzled by the way that your back prevents you from doing so many things that you need to do (namely to keep your house clean for reasons we both know, and that you advertised to MANY people when trying to rally people to the cause of someone you identified with), but the heart condition doesn’t prevent you from doing what you want to do for fun, while (again, for emphasis) your back prevents you from doing (or arranging to have done) what you NEED to do as an adult. I’m saddened by the fact that you consistently fail to act like an adult in a mutually informed and consensual relationship based on power exchange, and instead act like someone with the self-control and maturity of a three-year-old on anabolic steroids. I fervently hope that no child looks to you for an example of what responsible adulthood looks like.</blockquote><br />Which part of I am not participating haven't you yet caught on to? Privating my channels, not commenting, instead simply sticking to singing and only letting close friends know what is actually going on is participating? Gosh, Badger, that's even better than last time. What do you expect me to do? Move off this planet for the time being? And again it proves the old point that even if I don't engage, I do get blamed for what other people do anyway. So while again my docs are dropped, my house is called, the person even threatens to make my phone number go viral, I do nothing, and you STILL blame ME? See the flaw in your theory? My channels have been offline for over a week. I can participate in drama without being there, hallelujah! I'm omnipresent!<br /><br />And just like your beloved friends, you now ramble on about my health issues, and how I appear to not be unhealthy enough to do fun stuff, but can't do what I need to do. In other words: "Felida is a lazy, selfish bitch!" Quick, spread the gospel! Fact is: I am too unhealthy for most fun stuff, as you might have noticed in Liverpool, if you just had been observant enough. Plenty of people can testify to the massive amounts of medication I took for my heart, my back and my depression. I even shared some of my pain medication with others when they needed some, as you may recall. And still, even with all the meds I was on, I had to opt out of participating in quite a few events because of my health issues. Had you been in London during that gathering, you also would have witnessed some of that.<br /><br />Now in regards to that sub/Domme relationship you are referring to: I did act responsibly towards him at all times. I saw to it that he took better care of his health, I stopped him from irresponsibly spending money on me, even though he begged to be allowed to do just that, I told him to get the mental help he is in desperate need of. And I informed him when I didn't feel capable of being his Domme anymore due to my own mental health. Instead of accepting that, he kept crying and begging, and my biggest mistake was not having the strength to turn him down then and instead keep trying to be there for him, wearing myself thinner and thinner. But I don't even see why I am discussing this with you, since it is none of your business, nor anyone else's. So tell me again, why are we dragging my personal relations that you don't know jack shit about all over the internet? And frankly, to hint at my children in your blog entry is just low. Especially since you are going on hearsay only, which you said you wouldn't. Honesty, Badger? Where's yours?<br /><br /><blockquote>I wonder at your priorities, and I have to say that I’m somewhat dismayed by them, and I have exactly two pieces of advice for you: don’t even think about coming at me. You don’t have the patience to outlast me, and you don’t have the discipline or the resources to do anything more than piss me off. Second, grow the fuck up and take care of your children, who are far more important than any power-trip you get from the people you find and dispose of on the Internet.</blockquote>Ah, priorities. You see, that is WHY I privated my channels. That is WHY I am getting the help I need. That is WHY I haven't engaged in any bullshit with freethinkeronice, but instead called the cops right away when he continued to harass me. What would you suggest I do instead, dearest Badger?<br /><br />As far as "coming at you": I am responding to you this once, because I want you to know exactly how I feel about you talking about my personal life on the internet, based on nothing but hearsay, which you so desperately wanted to avoid and stick to the facts. I don't have the patience to outlast you? Perhaps not. Nor do I need it. You're dramawhoring, and I learned from the best that dramawhores best go ignored. Although I did feel the urge to respond in detail this one time. My psychologist will probably say it wasn't a good idea, but hey, I'll tell her about it in therapy and I promise we will walk through it. Perhaps she can suggest a good one for you as well. Is dramawhoring a recognized mental illness yet? If not, it should be. :D<br /><br />Oh, and again: "Take care of your children." Why thank you for that advice. I am, and have been. And during times my health is stopping me from taking care of them properly, my mother is helping me out. That's the kind of thing people do for each other as a family. Awesome how that works, right? As for the people I "dispose of", you are aware I never "disposed of" freethinkeronice, right? I even offered to be there for him as a friend and cared about him as such, which is why my boyfriend did NOT lash out at him as he would have wanted to. But it's quite obvious that effort was wasted.<br /><blockquote><br />Lastly, even if you learn nothing else, remember this: some people have personal pride to uphold, even if it’s only for themselves. The casual way in which you tread on the integrity of others may be even worse because their response will be nothing personal, just business. Oh, and you needn’t worry about me teaming up with your enemies. If I didn’t like them before, I still don’t like them now. I’m washing my hands of you, not my sense of honor.</blockquote><br />My favourite round, the advice one! Can I throw some at you in return? Don't say you don't go by hearsay, when you obviously do, slamming your foot so far down your throat, it ends up partially digested. Oh, and I know I needn't worry about you teaming up with my enemies, because you obviously already have! Seems you accidentally flushed your "honor" down the drain when you went after me based on nothing but the hearsay they fed you without even confirming what bit of it is true and what not. Makes you a rather sad puppy.<br /><br /><blockquote>Goodbye. It would be best if we never spoke again. I’ve prepared for your brand of bullshit because you don’t listen well, but it really would be best for you to walk away.<br /></blockquote>I'll translate that again: "Bye, bitch. I know that more people read my blog than yours, so whatever I say about you will spread further. I'm prepared to spread more of the bullshit I'm fed for the sake of perpetuating some drama I know nothing about, if you don't keep down and take a beating, like I told you before."<br /><br />Unfortunately for you I have already walked away from the DramaTubes. What are you going to do? Send the trolls to my singing channel? Flag my singing videos? Stalk me through comment sections? Talk more shit about me?<br /><br />Is this what this is all about? A competition of who can talk shit better? In that case, don't bother. I forfeit. You win when it comes to that.<br /><br />Of course there is, as always, the good old offer of "oopsy, fucked up, so let's undo this", because I am just too good for this world: You can delete your post, which can be proven to be full of lies, hypocricy and idiocy, and I will remove mine as well, we will never talk about this again and simply forget it happened, except we will also not talk to each other anymore.<br /><br />Alternatively, my blog post stays up and so does yours, and the amount of shit I don't give about whatever you can throw out on YouTube will grow immesurable. Just keep my flagging policy in mind. My personal business has no business being on there, even when you urged me to address it on here. It wasn't ME who decided to publicly talk about this, but YOU.<br /><br /><br />UPDATE:<br /><br />It appears StealthBadger has posted a follow up which looks somewhat like this:<br /><br /><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhwLFp55qfg3zb2hyILazwYeafFMt9KhPONySuZhR3zOQbqLNtU2AWbpCRbOuaqt2zXZFyPTgBUn2O1WfiWhouKSttW36TMq-XYNbLcEKnL3gZlCSGefZ1or32wB1e14gGIroh5bINcB1K6/s1600/lalalala-listening.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 400px; height: 329px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhwLFp55qfg3zb2hyILazwYeafFMt9KhPONySuZhR3zOQbqLNtU2AWbpCRbOuaqt2zXZFyPTgBUn2O1WfiWhouKSttW36TMq-XYNbLcEKnL3gZlCSGefZ1or32wB1e14gGIroh5bINcB1K6/s400/lalalala-listening.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5721009170174688514" border="0" /></a><br />As I assumed, no further response is necessary. I shall now move on to more entertaining things, such as watching paint dry. :-)Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4545208049798072255.post-12580437207506391312012-03-11T01:01:00.002+01:002012-03-11T01:08:04.879+01:00AwayAs already announced on my YouTube channels, I will be away for personal reasons. I have for now privated my channels to avoid being spammed by a person that continues stalking me and my boyfriend while I am not there. I am not sure how long I will be gone. It may just be a few days, it may be longer, it may be indefinitely.<br /><br />I'd like to thank all my YouTube friends for the good time I had with you. All my subscribers for showing interest in my videos and all the idiots for showing me exactly how I didn't want to end up.<br /><br />Those of you that feel they need to continue making videos about my personal life, whether it's my sex life, my family, my job or health situation, feel free to do so. You will just make yourself look all the more pathetic, not grasping the difference between an actual argument and a personal vendetta and smear campaign.<br /><br />So long, and thanks for all the fish.Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4545208049798072255.post-6774702541113644832012-01-19T19:22:00.004+01:002012-01-19T21:31:35.045+01:00Brett Keane chickens out againAfter Brett Keane repeatedly flagged comments of friends of mine for the most ridiculous reason, I decided to inform him that I would do the same to him. The following comment was left by me on JonPaulPrime's video <a href="http://www.youtube.com/all_comments?v=EE7L8nyHOPI">Interview With Jdubs </a>:<br /><blockquote>@WorldofWarcraftScrub I'm reporting your comment as harassment. Calling a dear friend of mine a pig, another friend a loser and chump, I think you have just done what you report other people for. An eye for an eye, a tooth for a tooth, a strike for a strike. I'm done with you.</blockquote>FelidaTheG33k vor 1 Stunde<br /><br /><br />Brett Keane in his smugness deleted the comment I responded to right after I made my reply, however, not in time for me to actually report it. In the comment he referred to Stefzula as "Shredder's pig wife" and to Shredder as "loser" and "chump".<br /><br />Edit: Thanks to Shredder, who kept the original comment Brett made in his email inbox and sent me a screenshot, so here it is:<br /><br /><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhqlaKLXu-qgUUmMXQ_hDJgiBpVf7DCqoecf-BPL34WbtBYSYdmG80Tnt2XqEjLGgKWCAWahX_tUx-lvkcBkSC3GDSppUahLYRFvWK0FnPA0k_YjemgdWer7HYnZYMGWU-vh06bP0z5Ku5p/s1600/Brett+pig.png"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 400px; height: 52px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhqlaKLXu-qgUUmMXQ_hDJgiBpVf7DCqoecf-BPL34WbtBYSYdmG80Tnt2XqEjLGgKWCAWahX_tUx-lvkcBkSC3GDSppUahLYRFvWK0FnPA0k_YjemgdWer7HYnZYMGWU-vh06bP0z5Ku5p/s400/Brett+pig.png" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5699443055909938162" border="0" /></a><br /><div style="text-align: center;">(click to enlarge)<br /></div><br /><br />Since Brett reports similar comments directed at him to YouTube, and repeatedly states so in this particular comment section, by his own standards his comment was worthy of being reported. Which of course is why he deleted it, probably thinking YouTube won't punish him for it if it's gone. Fortunately YouTube does keep records though, and I encourage everyone who receives this kind of treatment from Brett Keane to pay him back in kind and report any insult made by him to YouTube.<br /><br />Immediately following my comment, I suddenly was added on Skype by none other than Jdubs. I accepted his request to see what he wanted to talk about, and immediately was dragged into a group call with him, Brett Keane and one other person I don't know. Originally I felt no urge to talk to Brett, especially since I was in a different group call with nice people at the time. Brett immediately began insulting me, but see for yourself:<br /><br /><br /><blockquote>[17:41:05] *** John Dubstein added FelidaTheG33k ***<br />[17:41:05] *** Conference call ***<br />[17:41:17] FelidaTheG33k: I'm in another call.<br />[17:41:24] FelidaTheG33k: Not interested talking to Brett.<br />[17:41:26] FelidaTheG33k: Sorry.<br />[17:41:49] John Dubstein: hello<br />[17:41:59] Brett Keane: Afraid?<br />[17:42:26] FelidaTheG33k: No, simply not interested in your apologetics. You will be flagged and reported just like you flag and report.<br />[17:42:28] Brett Keane: Your just a loser who talks trash<br />[17:42:30] FelidaTheG33k: Bye now.<br />[17:42:34] FelidaTheG33k: And no, I did report you.<br />[17:42:38] FelidaTheG33k: And will continue doing so.<br />[17:42:39] Brett Keane: Good<br />[17:42:54] Brett Keane: To cowardly to talk<br />[17:43:00] Brett Keane: Not even a woman<br />[17:43:01] FelidaTheG33k: And YOU are one to talk, calling people in with your own backup<br />[17:43:06] FelidaTheG33k: scared of a one on one talk still?<br />[17:43:11] Brett Keane: I'm here fatso<br />[17:43:18] FelidaTheG33k: How about this, YOU join MY call<br />[17:43:19] Brett Keane: On mic<br />[17:43:32] Brett Keane: How about you lose pounds piggy<br />[17:43:34] FelidaTheG33k: You are the one who ragequit on me last time, remember?<br />[17:43:41] FelidaTheG33k: And you calling me piggy is funny.<br />[17:43:44] FelidaTheG33k: Looked in the mirror lately?<br />[17:43:52] Brett Keane: You look like a female Chucky<br />[17:44:08] FelidaTheG33k: Give me more, Brett. I am saving this convo. :D<br />[17:44:10] FelidaTheG33k: This is funny.<br />[17:44:17] Brett Keane: Ever wonder why your single?<br />[17:44:21] FelidaTheG33k: I am not :D<br />[17:44:27] Brett Keane: yes you are<br />[17:44:39] FelidaTheG33k: Ask Al1981X if I'm single...lol<br />[17:44:42] Brett Keane: Sure<br />[17:44:56] Brett Keane: Get him in here...bet you wont<br />[17:45:01] FelidaTheG33k: So, are insults all you have?<br />[17:45:12] Brett Keane: You have no brains<br />[17:45:18] John Dubstein: lets be friends<br />[17:45:19] FelidaTheG33k: Actually, I'm a mensa member.<br />[17:45:40] FelidaTheG33k: Friends with a false flagging, false DMCAing, plagiarizing, doc dropping, cheating thief?<br />[17:45:42] FelidaTheG33k: No thanks.<br />[17:45:56] Brett Keane: So you announce you false flag in comments which is recorded but not have guts to talk<br />[17:45:57] FelidaTheG33k: Contact sent to the group<br />[17:45:59] Brett Keane: figures<br />[17:46:04] FelidaTheG33k: add him and ask him who his girlfriend is :D<br />[17:46:32] FelidaTheG33k: I announced a legitimate flag. Aren't you the one who keeps claiming your flags are legit? You justified me flagging your comments.<br />[17:46:35] FelidaTheG33k: By your own actions.<br />[17:46:48] FelidaTheG33k: As I said, an eye for an eye, a tooth for a tooth, a flag for a flag.<br />[17:47:04] FelidaTheG33k: So how long before you kick me from this convo, Brett?<br />[17:47:12] FelidaTheG33k: Come on, you know you want to ragequit.<br />[17:47:21] FelidaTheG33k: It's the one thing you are good at.<br />[17:47:22] John Dubstein: have him add me<br />[17:47:37] FelidaTheG33k: Perhaps he doesn't want anything to do with you.<br />[17:47:45] Brett Keane: You pln on joining the call tubby?<br />[17:47:46] Brett Keane: as well<br />[17:47:53] John Dubstein: i am a good person<br />[17:48:38] FelidaTheG33k: So Brett, join my call, if you are that desperate to talk?<br />[17:48:45] Brett Keane: Perhaps you have no man...thats why you always want myself and jdubs attention<br />[17:48:48] FelidaTheG33k: I am sure you won't chicken out of that, will you?<br />[17:49:00] FelidaTheG33k: As I said, add Al1981X to this call<br />[17:49:06] FelidaTheG33k: and he will confirm who he is with :P<br />[17:49:21] FelidaTheG33k: And I am not the one who called here, am I?<br />[17:49:29] FelidaTheG33k: I simply reported your comment and you seem to be butthurt<br /><br /></blockquote>After this exchange, and after asking my boyfriend and a few friends if they were willing to join that call for a bit of clarification (figuring if Brett comes in a team of three, so can I), I joined the call and dragged some friends in.<br /><br /><blockquote>[17:50:29] *** FelidaTheG33k added Al1981HEX ***<br />[17:50:48] *** FelidaTheG33k added Matt/Napalm ***<br />[17:51:06] *** FelidaTheG33k added SchizophrenicQueen ***</blockquote>I informed Brett right away that in my country recording of voice conversations requires all parties to consent, and that I refuse to consent to him recording the call. US law states that even if you live in a one party consent state, if you do talk to a person from a state that requires two party consent, the two party consent overrules the one party consent, so if Brett actually posts any voice recording of mine (in which at some point I swear at him for repeatedly interrupting me), he is performing an illegal action and I will flag that video down.<br /><br />Jdubs then added JonPaulPrime, which I had no objections to whatsoever. Unfortunately right after that I received a call on my cellphone, which was more important than talking to Brett Keane, so I am unaware of the conversation up to that point. It appears Napalm had left earlier, not wanting to hear Brett's annoying voice, which I can understand completely.<br /><br /><blockquote>[17:52:00] *** John Dubstein added JonPaulPrime ***<br />[17:52:44] John Dubstein: jon<br />[17:56:32] Al1981HEX: h8tred42<br />[18:04:30] Al1981HEX: http://www.youtube.com/user/h8red42<br />[18:14:10] SchizophrenicQueen: http://www.youtube.com/user/SchizophrenicQueen<br />[18:32:00] Al1981HEX: brb<br />[18:34:29] Matt/Napalm: the deaal was not to talk to brett<br />[18:34:36] *** Matt/Napalm has left ***<br />[18:49:48] Al1981HEX: brb<br />[18:53:43] Al1981HEX: back<br />[18:53:49] Al1981HEX: getting terribke echo</blockquote><br /><br />When I returned, I demanded an apology from Brett for the insults earlier on in the chat, but instead of acknowledging that he started out with insulting me, he kept interrupting me and kept babbling on about his videos, which I am not even interested in. Eventually I raised my voice, since I got quite sick and tired of his constant interruptions as well as the fact that he kicked my friend SchizophrenicQueen for simply asking him to not interrupt.<br /><br /><blockquote>[18:55:35] *** Brett Keane removed SchizophrenicQueen from this conversation. ***</blockquote><br /><br />Needless to say there was no holding back for me from that point on. I think this was the moment I began swearing at him. A simple payback for the earlier insults, I think it was a fair trade. Of course he smugly informed me that he had recorded that bit. Good on you, Brett. He proceeded by kicking me right after, in typical Brett fashion.<br /><br /><blockquote>[19:00:29] *** Brett Keane removed FelidaTheG33k from this conversation. ***</blockquote><br /><br />Within minutes Alex was kicked as well, and JonPaulPrime left the conversation on his own, disagreeing with the kicks.<br /><br />So Brett once again proves that he can't handle criticism, has to show up with backup instead of one on one, and that he will never join on someone else's turf but instead insist, much like in stickam, to kick people whenever he hears things he doesn't like.<br /><br />Brett, you're chickenshit.Unknownnoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4545208049798072255.post-34183020638863016202011-11-14T08:45:00.003+01:002011-11-14T09:05:35.289+01:00Proof - what it is and what it isn't...Let's face it, on YouTube accusations are thrown around easily by many people. It appears sometimes that just repeating an accusation over and over from various sock accounts as well as having your friends echo you will make it appear more true, when in fact it does not. One may remember that any positive claim about the misdeeds of another requires for the accuser to provide the proof and evidence.<br /><br />Proper examples of such have been seen when straightdope and various other users have confronted Brett Keane. His plagiarism for example has been proven by comparing his works (from his original videos/audios) with the works of the actual authors. Comments he denies having made were screen captured and shown in full context, the "wife beating incident" was documented in form of filed police reports which made it into the public domain as well as his own wife making a video about the incident back then. While this may not be proof that he is a wife beater, since there is a possibility his wife is falsely accusing him, it is rather strange that they are still together, now both denying it ever happened, coming up with silly excuses.<br /><br />However, there has been another group of people who love throwing around accusations, and what they claim as proof is nothing but statements from either their own sock accounts or their own friends. When you make the claim that someone drained a whole lot of money out of another person based on nothing but a statement from the person who presents themselves as the victim, you can't exactly present the perceived victim's statement as proof. What would be proof? Transfer slips for example. Screenshots of the demand for money. If you can't provide either, chances are you are dealing with a baseless accusation.<br /><br />The same goes for interpreting a whole different meaning into something someone says. It doesn't matter how you perceive something, or more precisely, how you would like others to perceive what was said. You will never know the actual intention of the person who made a statement, no matter how much you try to convince others that you DO know. What you CAN do is take the statement at face value. If someone feels harassed by you and warns you that if you continue, they will forward all the information you have provided them with in regards to your person to the appropriate authorities, that is exactly what it means. In short: "Leave me alone, or I will file a police report." Interpreting a "I have shit on you, and I will make your personal life public" into such a statement is absolutely ridiculous, especially when you then look at the fact that a report was actually filed, in other words, the original threat, the face value statement, was followed through.<br /><br />When you are asked to provide proof for your accusations, it is not just silly, but completely stupid, to refer to screenshots of statements made by people about the person you are accusing, especially if a large amount of these people are not actual people but sock accounts of one and the same person, or if these people have some other agenda to discredit that person. What counts are hard facts and solid evidence. If you can't provide anything but hearsay, chances are you are simply a vindictive troll cunt. Especially when you are offered a fair debate with a completely unbiased moderator by the person you accuse, but keep dodging out of it. It sure shows a lot about you, when you feel like you can't provide anything of substance on neutral grounds.<br /><br />So before you make accusations, make sure you have actual evidence. Else you may just end up looking really fucking stupid.<br /><br />You know who you are!Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4545208049798072255.post-73946308976376360202011-10-30T00:44:00.005+02:002011-10-30T01:05:54.340+02:00#OccupyEverywhereHello folks,<br /><br />I haven't had much time to write on my blog, mainly because I have been busy following the <span style="font-weight:bold;">#Occupy</span> movement from fairly early on. What started as a small group as <span style="font-weight:bold;">#OccupyWallstreet</span> has now turned into a worldwide movement, and I am quite happy to see it grow. It is time the people speak out against everything that is wrong with our economy. It is time the people get together for a better future, and this may very well be the movement that finally gets this done.<br /><br />Shockingly enough though, despite the masses of protesters, the mainstream media is barely covering this important issue. I have just today talked to a friend in the US who was not at all aware that anything at all was going on, and I do think it's time to change this. The coverage is done mostly via social media and we need to think of those friends of ours not too familiar with today's social media. Please speak to them about <span style="font-weight:bold;">#OccupyEverywhere</span> and show them what is going on. Perhaps even teach them how they themselves can keep up with the actual news, not the fake stuff that is presented by the likes of Fox News.<br /><br />A few tips how to stay informed:<br /><br />If you do not have a twitter account yet, you might want to sign up for one. Go to <a href="http://www.twitter.com">http://www.twitter.com</a> and sign up. While you can follow topics, which are marked with a # symbol from the regular twitter page, it is much easier to use a client such as TweetDeck, which you can download at <a href="http://www.tweetdeck.com">http://www.tweetdeck.com</a>. TweetDeck will open a new column for every # topic you decide to follow. Either way though, you should keep an eye on the following tags: <span style="font-weight:bold;">#ows #occupywallstreet #occupyeverywhere</span> and respectively the tags for your area, such as <span style="font-weight:bold;">#occupydenver #occupyoakland</span> etc.<br /><br />Following post with these tags you will often find links to images, videos, even livestreams of what's currently going on. You can retweet them or otherwise spread the links to your friends and family. It is important that we all spread the news, especially to those who are NOT connected to any social media themselves.<br /><br />For those of you already following everything that wish to help out somehow but don't know how to:<br /><br />Almost all the <span style="font-weight:bold;">#Occupy</span> camps are in desperate need of donations, be it food, hygiene articles or clothing. If there is no local #Occupy camp in your area, but you would like to help out those in NewYork, I have a contact there who agreed to forward anything sent to him to the protesters there, so feel free to get in touch with me to ask where to send things to. Even if you can't donate any items, these folks would be very happy to receive letters of encouragement so they can see the world is watching and appreciating them.<br /><br />If you are really brave, go pack up your tent, sleeping bag, warm clothing and what else you may need, and join them! The more people are participating, the less our governments can ignore us! I am going to head out next week to pitch my tent with the folks of <span style="font-weight:bold;">#OccupyFrankfurt</span> and am already looking forward to it.<br /><br />If you are interested in finding out more, feel free to get in touch. I may not know all the answers, but I will gladly help you find them.<br /><br />To those already in the camps: Stay strong, stay united! We're all proud of you and appreciate everything you do for a better future for ourselves and our children!<br /><br />Lots of love,<br />FelUnknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4545208049798072255.post-72016278385065523932011-09-06T12:01:00.003+02:002011-09-06T12:52:05.815+02:00She knows me so well... (or not)I found this comment section in one of TruthsFrictionThree's recent videos, which shows yet again how adorably dishonest DmKrispin is, so I decided to address her and this person I don't know by the name of KCKatheist, who seems to think we are on a first name basis.<br /><br /><blockquote>@KCKatheist (this is ALL public from herself) She has a congenital valve defect, and needs a replacement. She's put it off for years, and publicly claims that the surgery is quite life-threatening and she will likely DIE (gasp!!), but privately admits that her doctor says it's actually fairly routine these days. She's still a heavy smoker (40 cigs a day) and she eats high-fat, high-sugar foods, and of course no regular exercise.<br /><br />Which brings us to her other disabilities<br /><br />(cont.>>)<br />DmKrispin 2 weeks ago<br /></blockquote><br /><br />Fact: I am suffering from aortic insufficiency. What I HAD been putting off for 2 years however was not the surgery, but the regular check ups, since my condition then was not bad enough to indicate surgery and was treatable with medication. I neglected seeing my cardiologist for fear that he might suggest I need surgery at one point, which scared me, but have been to a check-up recently, where it was established that I will have to have surgery within the next year. I do NOT smoke 40 cigarettes a day, although I do smoke. The number DmKrispin mentioned is freely invented for dramatic purpose. She also lies about my diet, which she knows absolutely nothing about, as well as my exercise habits.<br /><br /><blockquote>(>>cont.) She claims to have arthritis in her knees so bad that she "can barely walk", but she has no problems travelling & strolling around shopping and sight-seeing whenever she wants. She does no physical therapy for it, and she uses no mobility devices, not even a cane. She also neglects her general health, including allowing her weight to increase, which puts more wear and tear on her joints.<br /><br />(cont.>>)<br />DmKrispin 2 weeks ago<br /></blockquote><br /><br />DmKrispin has obviously never seen me walk, especially in the morning. I actually DO have problems "strolling around", which is why I opted out of participating in the activities that required longer walks during our Liverpool gathering and fell behind during a rather long walk in London, which anyone participating can testify to as well. As a matter of fact I DO get physical therapy and I do not neglect my general health, having lost a large amount of weight over the past year, contrary to her claim.<br /><br /><blockquote>(cont) She also claims to have spinal arthritis, but knows surprisingly little about the condition, does no PT for it, travels long distances, going to concerts, strolling, shopping, sight-seeing, etc. She also shows no problem moving around, standing, sitting on uncomfortable chairs or rough-housing. In Liverpool, she got behind Rhysz (who is 6' tall), wrapped her arms around his waist, lifted him completely off the ground, & slammed him back down hard enough to hurt his knee.<br /><br />Interesting, no?<br />DmKrispin 2 weeks ago<br /></blockquote><br /><br />I find it amazing how DmKrispin claims to know how little I know about my own condition without me ever discussing it with her. She also assumes I do no PT, which is a blatant lie (I swim regularly, which is one of the physical exercises I can perform somewhat pain free, as there is no additional strain on the joints). Yes, I travel, but she makes it sound like I go on 8 hour flights, not the short flights to England or train trips to Belgium and the Netherlands. Last time I checked, people with disabilities were still allowed to travel. Her observation in regards to "standing or sitting around on uncomfortable chairs" is quite interesting, as we never met in person. I am assuming this information is based on hearsay by the person she mentions in this paragraph. However, that person knows very well that I am on permanent pain medication, as I shared one of my painkillers with him when he injured his knee, which by the way happened unrelated to the playful body slam. Oh, and I did not wrap my arms around his waist, but his upper body and used a rather simple move that takes advantage of leverage (step back, short jerk upwards with little strength used, simply dropping again while moving backwards, so no slam, he only hit the floor with his own body weight, while I simply moved his center of gravity behind where his feet touched the ground - ask a martial artist for details), to knock Rhysz off balance, who, despite his knee injury was running about rather speedily, chasing after another Liverpool attendee. Blaming his knee injury on me is a blatant lie by DmKrispin yet again, since he had it previously to our playful encounter.<br /><br /><blockquote>@DmKrispin Very much so. I'm neuro certified, but worked cardiac ACU for years. Valve replacements are fairly routine. Even aortic valve replacements/grafts are generally uneventful. Deaths I dealt with resulted from secondary issues-blood clots, respiratory emergencies, infections, etc. These were rare and occured in the post-op phase. Smoking, drinking & obesity put valve defect patients at far greater risk if they refuse replacement surgery.<br /><br />(cont>>)<br /><br />KCKatheist 2 weeks ago<br /></blockquote><br /><br />Yes, valve replacements are fairly routine, but nonetheless there is a risk, especially when combined with other medical conditions that neither you nor DmKrispin know about, and anyone facing such a surgery has a right to be scared. It is nice how a self proclaimed nurse is trying to put a medical diagnosis and prognosis on me though without a single look at my medical file. You may also be aware that surgery is not performed until absolutely necessary and the condition is often treated with medication if no immediate risk is present, while closely observing the patient in regular checkups. Doctors generally suggest moderate exercise (while strenuous exercise is forbidden) as well as a healthy body weight to minimize risk. I have been on Torasemide for years and have lost a nice amount of weight over the past year.<br /><br /><blockquote><br />@KCKatheist As for arthritis in the knees, you are aware of the obvious. As she remains quite unrestricted in her mobility, I doubt it's severe. Arthritis in the spine (spondylosis) is agonizingly painful and debilitating. Most patients are on potent pain relievers, muscle relaxers, and anti-inflammatory rx. Lifting a bag of groceries is generally prohibitive-lifting a 6', 200lbs man, impossible. Mobility is severely limited; many patients use wheelchairs or scooters.<br /><br />(cont..)<br />KCKatheist 2 weeks ago<br /></blockquote><br /><br />I remain unrestricted in my mobility? I find this rather funny, coming from two people who have never met me in person. As a matter of fact, I am rather restricted in my mobility. I am on metamizole and diclofenac and there are days I DO use crutches, as those who actually DO know me and have met me have observed and can testify to.<br /><br /><blockquote>@KCKatheist Some patients benefit from extensive spinal fusions, but often the surgery fails and patients are left more crippled than pre-operatively.<br /><br />The pain from spondylosis is extreme. It can be seen in the faces, heard in the voices of those afflicted. It can't be masked. Meds such as Oxycontin are used, often in high doses, to manage this pain. People on such potent opiates who drink to excess generally go to sleep and never wake up.<br /><br />I doubt her veracity.<br />KCKatheist 2 weeks ago </blockquote><br /><br />So this self proclaimed medical expert generalizes people on pain medication, claiming they drink to excess generally. Lovely. Well, as stated above, I am on a variety of medications for my various conditions, but do not drink excessively. It is impressive how a mere nurse doubts the diagnosis of various specialists, especially since the specialists have actually seen me in person, have X-rays, CT scans, etc, unlike KCKatheist.<br /><br />Do you people realize just how retarded you sound?<br /><br />Have a nice day.Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4545208049798072255.post-25244068075770433242011-08-23T21:01:00.003+02:002011-08-23T22:47:40.238+02:00Fun in Antwerp and GentSo I have just arrived back home from a wonderful extended weekend in Belgium and I enjoyed my stay so much, that I am definitely going back there, hopefully in the near future. Here is my little travel diary:
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<br /><span style="font-weight:bold;">Friday, 19th of August 2011</span>
<br />I rush out of the house at a quarter to 8, knowing I am running a bit late, as usual. I miss the tram I originally wanted to take, hoping the next one won't run late, else I will miss my train. Fortunately there is no delay, and I can finally relax on the first step of my journey, taking the train from Mannheim to Cologne.
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<br />Not having had breakfast, I enter the train's board bistro and ask if they accept credit cards, since I am low on cash and am assured that I can pay with my Visa card just to find out after eating the overpriced mediocre food that they apparently have trouble getting confirmation through my prepaid Postbank Visa. Not having enough cash on me, I am at a bit of a loss how to pay the bill, asking them if they are willing to wait in Cologne until I can rush to an ATM and come back with the cash, but they agree to send a bill to my house instead. Works for me, but take this as a hint: Prepaid credit cards are not usable for expenses on Deutsche Bahn trains.
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<br />Arrival in Cologne is in time (yes, DB trains CAN be punctual!)and I stroll over to the other platform with plenty of time to spare for my connection train to Brussels. Time to stand in the "smoking zone" and feed my nicotine addiction.
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<br />In Brussels I have 10 minutes to find out which platform the train to Antwerp leaves from. Announcements through the speaker system are in French and Flemish and I realize while I understand regular Dutch fairly well, I have a hard time with Flemish. Fortunately there are some nice people around who translate for me and I have a very nice lady sitting next to me on the train who lets me know at which stop to get off the train.
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<br />I arrive in Antwerp and spot <a href="http://www.youtube.com/freethinkeronice">freethinkeronice</a>, who is waiting for me on the platform. I'm happy to see him but also hungry as hell after the mediocre breakfast, so we stop by the next available food source, which is a hot dog stand and I feel a lot better afterwards, especially when spotting the Starbucks up the stairs, which is where we spend the next hour and a half, since we can't check into the hotel before 4pm. While the Starbucks at Antwerp train station has no free internet (which is unusual for a Starbucks), there is a Telenet hotspot available that you can access if you have an account with them, or alternatively via Skype credit.
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<br />We check into our room at <a href="http://www.budgetplaces.com/de/antwerpen-apartment-17846-budget-flats-antwerp.html">Budget Flats</a> in Antwerp at 4pm. The receptionist is extremely nice and perfectly honest about the shortcomings of the flats available, such as the free WiFi cutting in and out in the building where we have our flat, suggesting that it would probably be a waste of money to pay the additional fee for the fast internet, since the WiFi is unstable. We pay the extra 5 Euro anyway and notice a bit of a difference in speed, despite it cutting off now and then, and the 5 Euro will buy you faster internet for a full month. If you need the WiFi only to check mail, you may be perfectly fine using just the free WiFi though. The flat is nice and big with huge windows, but the cleaning personnel could have done a better job. We find some prehistoric ice cream in the freezer, left there by a previous guest and the dishes appear to have just been rinsed off, not washed, so we rewash all dishes we intend to use first.
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<br />Later that night we go out to find something edible as well as some fun stuff to do. We end up having some Belgian beer at an Irish Pub (sounds silly, I know) and I realize that Belgians indeed equal Germany when it comes to beer brewing, then move on to a karaoke bar that is simply weird, since the background tracks aren't the original but some cheap version in a key that renders the songs unsingable, since you have to sing either way lower or way higher than the original. We leave after one song since it's late anyway and we still want food. We end up in a turkish fastfood place where I have some chicken, fries and salad, then head back to the flat.
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<br /><span style="font-weight:bold;">Saturday, 20th of August 2011</span>
<br />I get coffee in bed and freethinkeronice buys fresh rolls from the bakery for our breakfast. Kitchen in the flat works well and I manage to produce some fairly decent scrambled eggs for a good start into the day despite missing a spatula. Afterwards we stroll around Antwerp and do a bit of shopping, then go back to the hotel to relax and have fun.
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<br />I cook an extremely late dinner in our little kitchen, we are having Bratwurst, Rotkraut and mashed potatos (why do I insist on cooking typical German food while in Belgium?). We do the dishes and head to bed way too late, having to get up early to check out by 10am tomorrow.
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<br /><span style="font-weight:bold;">Sunday, 21st of August 2011</span>
<br />I hate my alarm clock, which goes off at 9am, but it has to be done, so we get up, take our showers, pack our things and manage to head out right at 10am. Perhaps we should have gotten up a bit earlier. Rushing sucks. We head to the Antwerp Centraal trainstation again and put some of our luggage into a locker there, since we don't need it all for our one night in Gent. Afterwards we have some real coffee at the Starbucks again, then catch the train to Gent.
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<br />We're on the train to Gent shortly after 1pm. The ride takes us 50 minutes. Although we know there is a tram going from the station to the hotel in Gent, we decide to go for a bit of luxury and take a taxi. The driver is odd, speaking no English, no German, barely any Flemish but apparently French. Sorry to say, neither freethinkeronice nor I speak French. If you drive a cab in the Flemish part of Belgium, shouldn't you speak Flemish? Just sayin'.
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<br />We check into the <a href="http://www.ibishotel.com/de/hotel-1455-ibis-gent-centrum-opera/index.shtml">Ibis Gent Centrum Opera</a> hotel at around 2pm. The room is tiny, the beds are not the most comfortable, but the location is nice. We inquire about areas to smoke and <span style="font-weight:bold;">are told the entire hotel is smoke free and has no terrace, so we have to smoke in front of the hotel on the street</span>, which turns out to be a blatant lie by the receptionist later on.
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<br />Hunger is killing us! So we head out on a quest for food and stumble across this wonderful little restaurant in Gent called <a href="http://www.cityplug.be/en/Ghent/1CQ3VXOO_Restaurant_Brasserie-Mistral.html">Mistral</a>. The food is simply godly and I doubt even Gordon Ramsay would have anything bad to say about it. If you ever end up in Gent and are looking for good food, I can only suggest the Mistral. This cook knows his job!
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<br />From about 6pm on we sit at the hotel bar, waiting for Skorpys to arrive, debating whether he will take the tram or a taxi. I bet on taxi and am proven right. A taxi pulls up and spits out Skorpys. <span style="font-weight:bold;">When he checks in, the receptionist actually asks him if he wants a smoking or non-smoking room!</span> Are they kidding me? I complain that not only was I not asked that question (since I would have taken a smoking room), but even was told there is no smoking in the entire hotel. <span style="font-weight:bold;">The receptionist simply ignores me.</span> Am I made of thin air?
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<br />The three of us head into the city of Gent to find something edible for Skorpys. Unfortunately the Mistral is closed by now since the owner is celebrating his birthday, so we find another restaurant. While I don't remember the name of the restaurant, the sentence "Nice to MEAT you" on the menu leaves a lasting impression. I wonder if they considered the implications of such a sentence before printing it.
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<br />We stroll through Gent a bit more, have another drink at some pub, then run into a group of students having a jam session by the river. The guitar player is simply awesome and there is a female singer with a great voice. We hang out and sing together, having fun jamming until it gets too cold to stay any longer. Phone numbers and Facebook pages exchanged. We will definitely stay in touch and jam again at some point!
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<br /><span style="font-weight:bold;">Monday, 22nd of August 2011</span>
<br />freethinkeronice is up early, but is a sweety and lets me sleep while he goes and gets breakfast and more smokes somewhere. By the time I get up the hotel doesn't serve breakfast anymore, but Skorpys and I manage to get some mediocre and much overpriced coffee to get us out of zombie mode. Not satisfied with the coffee there, the three of us head into the city again to search for some proper breakfast and find a nice little café in some side street where they make a really good omelette and nice coffee. Ready to face another day!
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<br />We head over to the river again and go on a boat ride to tour the city of Gent. I'm filming a lot of footage and while writing this blog entry remind myself to edit it and post it on YouTube! I will edit this post and link to the video once it's done.
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<br />The day is over way too soon and we head back to Antwerp in the evening, checking back into the Budget Flats for our last night.
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<br /><span style="font-weight:bold;">Tuesday, 23rd of August 2011</span>
<br />Where did the weekend go? We check out of the flat at 10am again while a massive thunderstorm is raging and temperatures have dropped. I put on my sweater, since I forgot to bring a coat. At least I have my umbrella. We take a taxi back to the train station anyway, since the rain is blowing sideways. We spend the rest of the time at Starbucks again until I have to get on the train, which is delayed by 5 minutes. I panic just a little, since that only gives me 5 minutes to find out which platform my connection train in Brussels leaves from and get there, but all works out well, since that train has a delay of 20 minutes as well, leaving me with some time to spare. When I get on the train I have to argue a bit with the lady that is occupying my reserved seat before she finally gets up. The connection train in Cologne is on time, but the original 40 minute layover allows me to be relaxed about it. Other than that the trip back is fairly uneventful.
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<br />All in all I really enjoyed Belgium and am looking forward to the next time. I just wish I could have stayed longer.Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4545208049798072255.post-39202403240853116592011-08-12T16:42:00.005+02:002011-08-12T17:21:01.299+02:00Your August boy and girl!The AoD has recruited a new spokesperson to talk shit about me, the fire breathing dragon, the incarnation of all that is evil within this world! But behold, this person, while trying his best to further spread the lies AoD is spreading about me via the TruthsFriction channels that have been debunked thoroughly already and hence need no further addressing, is actually suggesting to others to keep me as a "powerful ally". So tell me, <a href="http://www.youtube.com/Felinoid">Felinoid</a>, are you actually saying it is okay to keep scum around as allies? Or could it be that you know fully well I am not what you make me out to be, but are doing someone else a favour by talking shit about me?
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<br />Either way, I nominate you my boy of the month of August, congratulations!
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<br />As for my girl of the month, I give you DmKrispin and ScrabbleScore (the latter actually being TemoinsGirl, while claiming to be her RL best friend *awwwww*). It looks like they have to share the girl of the month of August for posting their ridiculous crap on Felinoid's video. Here's what they had to say, as well as my responses. Why not respond on the video, you ask? Because they will just flag the comments for harassment again, as they have done before. Enjoy:
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<br /><blockquote><span style="font-style:italic;">FACT: She posted her docs on her blog (her reason for doing so is irrelevant)
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<br />FACT: She provided a hyperlink to that same blog on her PUBLIC YT CHANNEL, and encouraged people to click on it.
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<br />FACT: She has yet to produce one single shred of actual evidence that AoD is "spreading" her address or real phone number anywhere. This is an assumption based on pure speculation; also known as "a wild ass guess".
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<br />*sits back and waits for the strawman & goalpost moving*
<br /><span style="font-weight:bold;">DmKrispin 18 hours ago</span></span></blockquote>
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<br />FACT: The reason why my docs are on my blog is NOT irrelevant, even if your wishful thinking makes you believe so. Nobody has the right to abuse a law for doc dropping.
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<br />FACT: I had a link to it on my channelpage in the past, but did NOT encourage people to click on it except those in certain YouTube groups I interacted with (German political groups). That link has long been removed. If you insist that having it had on there still gives you the right to constantly refer to it (including showing the URL while mentioning that my docs are on there), I have as much right to continue referring to everything SniperOfBuffalo has at one point in the past posted on his channel page. Telling someone you can find more info using google surely does not require anyone to have a degree in rocket science.
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<br />FACT: I have proven evidence. You chose to ignore it. That makes you the ignorant idiot, not me.
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<br /><blockquote><span style="font-style:italic;">FACT: She made a video with her own docs in it, saying she couldn't be bothered to blank the info out. She then asked people to mirror that same video. The mirrors are STILL floating around.
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<br />FACT: She put a hyperlink to her UNprotected Twitter (with her full name) on her public YT channel, and asked people to "follow" her.
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<br />FACT: She talks openly about living in Mannheim, she talks about her kids by name, she even put the 12-year-old on cam to interrogate her.
<br /><span style="font-weight:bold;">DmKrispin 12 hours ago</span></span></blockquote>
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<br />FACT: I made a video AFTER my docs were already dropped by Zierota's AArmy friends all over YouTube after filing a counternotice on kookyinc's behalf. So my docs were originally out there BECAUSE of being doc dropped, and I originally responded with that video not caring anymore about my address being out there and a phone number I was not using anymore. The docs AoD are spreading via linking to my German blog contain more than the video does. Nice way of twisting the truth though, DmKrispin.
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<br />FACT: You got the age of my child wrong, yet claim to know so much about me. Failtroll.
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<br /><blockquote><span style="font-style:italic;">FACT: TruthsFriction has systematically dismantled, debunked and destroyed every claim she's ever made, past and present.
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<br />FACT: Her sociopathic, dangerous behavior is now documented not just on YT but all over the internet itself, and any search performed provides the results.
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<br />FACT: She's pissed off TF remains a faceless entity she can't blackmail or harass into silence.
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<br />FACT: She's had her ass kicked so bad there's no recovering from it.
<br /><span style="font-weight:bold;">ScrabbleScore 10 hours ago</span></span></blockquote>
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<br />FACT: TruthsFriction has not dismantled, debunked and destroyed anything, on the contrary. Taking random statements of your own sock accounts and repeating them does not constitute proof.
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<br />FACT: I have not been diagnosed with sociopathy. I suffer from depression, which is perfectly well handled by a daily dosage of Citalopram. What you refer to as "documented" is a few slanderous blogs created by you and your cronies. Nice try though.
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<br />FACT: I have solid evidence that Zierota is at least one of the people behind TruthsFriction. I will post the proof when I feel like it, because frankly, outing a bunch of trolls do not take priority in my schedule.
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<br />FACT: If by saying "had her ass kicked" you mean had her channel false flagged down, I would agree with you. Other than that it's wishful thinking on your part.
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<br /><blockquote><span style="font-style:italic;">FACT: Evidence she co-created, named and used over 100 troll accounts to harass & dox AoD & friends /watch?v=Sm75IHYsWVw
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<br />FACT: She was never doc-dropped but did dox several others /watch?v=2KpWY9ARnt4&feature=youtu.be
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<br />FACT: She flags, trolls, doc-drops, bullies, harasses and threatens others /watch?v=AYWCWXixs1U watch?v=OS3WNEBxc-M and /watch?v=5i2yHV4JHuM
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<br />FACT: Nothing but evidence against her on every count and she's supplied zero proof for any of her many hysterical claims.
<br /><span style="font-weight:bold;">ScrabbleScore 10 hours ago</span></span></blockquote>
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<br />FACT: You have no evidence that I am behind any socks, because it's an outright lie. Nice try though.
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<br />FACT: I was doc dropped on several occasions, first by the AArmy (and you refer to evidence for that as your "proof" that I dropped my own docs), then by AoD via continuously handing out the link to my german blog via the TruthsFriction channels. Oh, and SniperOfBuffalo tried to reveal my home address on his blog, but failed miserably, since he referred to an address I lived at over 7 years ago.
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<br />FACT: You are projecting. I don't flag, I don't troll and I don't harass, unlike you.
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<br /><blockquote><span style="font-style:italic;">FACT: She has lost channels due to YT ToS violations that she shows in her videos got yanked for hate speech, bullying and harassment.
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<br />FACT: She was a tolerated outcast at the Liverpool meet up.
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<br />FACT: She has strong-armed and sob-storied others online and in RL for money in order to receive cash, goods, gifts, equipment, trips and vacations.
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<br />FACT: No one ever heard of the AArmy before her and they only make an appearance when she needs to a visible win to promote herself as a champion.
<br /><span style="font-weight:bold;">ScrabbleScore 10 hours ago</span> </span>
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<br />FACT: What's good for the goose is good for the ganter. If you consider me being flagged down legitimate, then I would assume the same can be true for the flagging of the TruthsFriction channels as well as Shangi. However, since you acknowledge the existence of false flagging, I am sure you also acknowledge the possibility that my channel was false flagged. Else you are simply a dishonest hypocrite.
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<br />FACT: ROFL at tolerated outcast. And I am sure since YOU were present, you know all about it. Oh wait, you were not. I am so glad we cleared that up.
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<br />FACT: I receive stuff via sob stories? Surely you can back that up with proof. You can't? Such a damn shame. Another idiotic statement made by a failtroll. I have already disclosed my paypal account on here. Time to serve up your proof. Bank statements of people sending me money? Transfer slips? Anything? No? Seems you are lying out your arse there, dear.
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<br />FACT: The AArmy existed long before I entered the circus, as kookyinc already explained to you on the video where you left this comment. Yet again a statement made from ignorance. Grats, you make yourself look more and more stupid with each comment you leave.
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<br /><blockquote><span style="font-style:italic;">FACT: She talked publicly about her not-really-exhusband, his girlfriend, and their toddler by their actual names.
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<br />FACT: She made a public video detailing her workplace by name and location.
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<br />FACT: She made a public video about her daughter's school!
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<br />FACT: She talked publicly about when and by what transport her daugher (15 at the time) would be travelling alone.
<br /><span style="font-weight:bold;">DmKrispin 11 hours ago </span></span></blockquote>
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<br />FACT: I talked publicly TO my separated husband and his girlfriend. And guess what, neither of them mind me addressing them by their names. Does your family call you DmKrispin? Didn't think so.
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<br />FACT: SAP employs over 50,000 people, considering it is one of the largest software companies worldwide. What is your issue with me mentioning that?
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<br />FACT: I made a video about the PROBLEMS at my daughter's school, especially with the principal's power abuse. I did not mention the name of the school or the location of it. So what's your problem with that? We are not allowed to point out power abuse in the school system?
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<br />FACT: You fail to note that by the time my daughter would have been travelling, she would have been 16 years of age. It is perfectly legal for a 16 year old to go on a 45 minute train ride on her own. Again, what is your issue other than failtrolling?
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<br />Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4545208049798072255.post-34841671377627751652011-07-23T22:51:00.005+02:002011-07-23T23:08:29.348+02:00The gloves are off, Joshua T. Schuster!That's right, I am handing out your full name, including your middle initial, SniperOfBuffalo, and let me tell you why:<br /><br />I can cope with it when you spread lies about me.<br />I can cope with it when you doctor screenshots to fake being flagged.<br />I can cope with you impersonating me.<br />I can cope with you flagging my channel down.<br /><br /><span style="font-weight:bold;">I will NOT allow you to harass my children!</span><br /><br />Yes, I made the mistake of not checking if she was logged out of her channel before I posted a comment, so it went through from her account. I immediately clarified whose account this was, and the channel name should be a pretty obvious indicator that this was a CHILD'S account. Looking at her channel page before I asked her to set it to private you could SEE she is a child.<br /><br /><span style="font-weight:bold;">Despite me informing you of this, you decided to continue posting your vileness to HER, not ME. I asked you to stop and you LAUGHED at me and continued!</span> So yes, I DID threaten you. Because you DO NOT GET TO HARASS A CHILD! <span style="font-weight:bold;">MY CHILD!</span><br /><br />And then you have the audacity to flag my comments, in which I warned you to not go after my daughter, as harassment? Keep flagging, Joshua T. Schuster of Buffalo, NY. A YouTube comment or video of mine is the LEAST you have to worry about now. You fuck with my children, I fuck you up, it really is that simple. It's on, bitchboy!<br /><br />To my friends in the greater Buffalo, NY area: Please get in touch. We need a chat.<br /><br /><span style="font-weight:bold;">Joshua:</span> <span style="font-weight:bold;">If you want to avoid my wrath, feel free to issue a formal apology to my daughter and promise to leave her alone and this will end.</span> You can continue talking shit about and to me, but my daughter is off limits. Until such an apology to her is issued, you are not just on my radar, but in my crosshairs, and I will have no remorse pulling the trigger on your sorry ass. Are we fucking clear on this?<br /><br />Dismissed.Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4545208049798072255.post-44581706212230944802011-07-12T22:37:00.007+02:002011-07-13T00:14:31.843+02:00I am stuck in an elevator gate, help!After reading all the serious blog entries and watching all the serious videos made by serious people with serious faces using serious words and everything seriously spinning out of proportion, it is my time to chime in on the hot topic. After all, it seems to be the fashionable thing to do these days. Elevatorgate, here I come!<br /><br />First things first: Why the bloody hell does it have to be [insert random incident here] gate all the time? Watergate made sense, after all it was called the Watergate Hotel. But do we really need to make a meme out of this? If these topics are as serious as everyone claims they are, why make a meme out of them? Isn't a meme more of a mocking fun thing? Thought so! So since we named the incident Elevatorgate, does it really make sense to be all serious about it? Not a chance!<br /><br />So, what actually happened here? What is Elevatorgate? I will try to sum up my view of things, which of course is only the view of an observing outsider, so I am probably not at all accurate. Bite me!<br /><br />Elevatorgate started, when <a href="http://www.youtube.com/RKWatson">RKWatson</a> aka <a href="http://skepchick.org/">Skepchick</a> committed the horrible atrocity of making an unscripted (*gasp*) 8 minute and 3 second <a href="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uKHwduG1Frk">video</a> in which she rambled about moving houses, a trip to California, speaking at several meetings, visiting the Mythbusters' set, getting raptured, travelling to Dublin for an atheist conference, visiting the Science Gallery, meeting AronRa and DPRjones, talking on a panel during that conference in which she discussed feminist issues within the skeptic community and a whooping 1 minute and 20 seconds about the guy in the elevator.<br /><br />So what did she say about the guy in the elevator? In case you were too lazy to click the link and watch the full video, here is a transcript:<br /><blockquote>"You were all fantastic. I loved talking to you guys. All of you except for the one man who didn't really grasp, I think, what I was saying on the panel, because at the bar later that night, actually at 4 in the morning, we were at the hotel bar... 4am I said, <span style="font-style: italic;">"You know, I've had enough guys, I'm exhausted. Going to bed."</span> So I walked to the elevator and a man got on the elevator with me and said, <span style="font-style: italic;">"Don't take this the wrong way, but I find you very interesting and I would like to talk more. Would you like to come to my hotel room for coffee?"</span> Just a word to the wise here: Guys, don't do that! You know, I don't really know how else to explain how this makes me incredibly uncomfortable, but I'll just sort of lay it out that I was a single woman, you know, in a foreign country, at 4am, in a hotel elevator with you, just you. And I... don't invite me back to your hotel room right after I finished talking about how it creeps me out and makes me uncomfortable when men sexualize me in that manner."</blockquote>So what do I think about that statement? Fair enough. This was not a long and detailed analysation of what happened to her or what the man's intentions were, it was merely an unscripted spontaneous statement recalling and wording exactly how she felt at the time. She was creeped out, she thought the guy probably wanted sex (which is likely but not proven) and it remained in her memory enough to mention the incident and how she felt in an unscripted rambly video. Do I think she overreacted? Perhaps a bit, because none of us, including her, knew his intentions. Perhaps he genuinely wanted to chat, who knows. Perhaps he did want sex and was hoping she would return interest. Again, we don't know.<br /><br />So did the guy do anything wrong? I wouldn't call it wrong as such, just incredibly clumsy, perhaps a bit idiotic. He approached someone who had just finished speaking about being sexualized with the words "Don't take this the wrong way, but...". This sentence pretty much guarantees that someone WILL take something the wrong way. It implies that he already KNOWS what the following statement could be mistaken as, and even if he doesn't intend for it to come across as such, which is why he started out the way he did, he knows she will think about this as well. And that alone will be a fairly good indicator, if you are genuinely just interested in chatting and a cup of coffee, that a different approach may be in order. So what do I think of the elevator guy? He is a poor, unfortunate clumsy putz that probably had no bad intentions at all.<br /><br />Being the geek I am and having worked with people in IT, who are mostly male and mostly clumsy putzes, here are MY few words to the wise. Tips how he COULD have approached Rebecca with a more satisfactory result for both parties: He could have asked her while still at the bar, with others around, or, if too scared to approach her in front of people, he could have asked her to have breakfast in the hotel bar the next day, instead of coffee in his room.<br /><br />So why did this blow up into "Elevatorgate"?<br /><br />The radical feminist mob that makes up a huge chunk of Rebecca's audience decided to label the poor clumsy fool a potential rapist. Heaven help us, there is a man who might think a woman is sexy and he takes a chance, albeit a very clumsy one, and approaches her! Ladies, get a fucking grip on reality! Not every man who shows interest in you is a potential rapist. Some, I dare say the majority, are actually quite nice and just genuinely want to share a good time with you, possibly even fall in love, without immediately expecting you to get in the kitchen and remain barefoot and pregnant! While the concept of dating someone of the opposite gender may seem strange to some of you, it can be quite pleasurable, and it usually takes one of the two (or more) involved parties to make an initial approach to indicate interest. They may not always be approaches that you appreciate, they may occasionally be clumsy, but they are not the end of the world, nor are they the opening scene to you being horribly violated. It is thanks to you, this particular type of fanbase, that Rebecca is now receiving more crap than needed, because YOUR statements are falsely attributed to her. And she is fool enough to thank you for it.<br /><br />But this was not the end of it, of course. Spurred on by complaints from an audience opposing the statements that were now attributed to Rebecca, Richard Dawkins now decided to chime in. And he did so in a way that can only be described as even more clumsy than the best elevator guy himself could have possibly produced. He decided to comment on PZ Myer's blog <a href="http://scienceblogs.com/pharyngula/2011/07/always_name_names.php#comment-4295492">Pharyngula</a>:<br /><p></p><blockquote><p>"Dear Muslima</p> <p>Stop whining, will you. Yes, yes, I know you had your genitals mutilated with a razor blade, and . . . yawn . . . don’t tell me yet again, I know you aren’t allowed to drive a car, and you can’t leave the house without a male relative, and your husband is allowed to beat you, and you’ll be stoned to death if you commit adultery. But stop whining, will you. Think of the suffering your poor American sisters have to put up with.</p> <p>Only this week I heard of one, she calls herself Skep”chick”, and do you know what happened to her? A man in a hotel elevator invited her back to his room for coffee. I am not exaggerating. He really did. He invited her back to his room for coffee. Of course she said no, and of course he didn’t lay a finger on her, but even so . . .</p> <p>And you, Muslima, think you have misogyny to complain about! For goodness sake grow up, or at least grow a thicker skin.</p> <p>Richard"</p><blockquote></blockquote></blockquote>Well done, Richard. You practically tell someone "cope with what makes you uncomfortable, others have it worse", which reminds me of my grandmother, when she kept telling me to cope with wearing the itchy wool sweater she knitted that kept giving me a mild rash, because other children had no clothes at all. Are you saying in order to be able to properly help other children get clothes I have to wear a sweater that gives me a rash? I felt uncomfortable wearing it, and I had every right to complain, even if other children don't have clothes. I also have the right to complain about bad tasting food in a restaurant, despite all the starving children in the world. Apparently however you don't seem to think so. So the next time something makes you feel uncomfortable, whether it is your steak not being cooked to your liking or being bought some clothes you can't stand to wear: Stop your bitching, because there are children in Africa that have no food or clothes at all! While I do understand your grievance with the FANBASE of Rebecca, I can not understand your beef with Rebecca herself at all. So yes, you are an even more clumsy putz than elevator guy himself, although I will still refuse to call you a misogynist prick like so many of Rebecca's fans now seem to do.<br /><br />Did it end here though? No way! Nuh uh! We have drama! Let's feed it!<br /><br />So some people who attributed Rebecca's fanbase's statements to Rebecca chimed in and backed up Richard Dawkins' ridiculous statement, cheering, cajoling, running to Rebecca's video and leaving a tirade of comments that remind me of the scribbling on highschool bathroom stall doors. Pretty much any misogynist insult in the book can be found on there by now, and these are in return falsely attributed to Dawkins by Rebecca's fanbase.<br /><br />This entire clusterfuck has absolutely nothing to do anymore with the original statements made. It has turned into fanbase vs. fanbase and lost all aspects of reasonable discussion between two intellectuals.<br /><br />And that is the <span style="font-weight: bold;">real</span> shame about Elevatorgate.Unknownnoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4545208049798072255.post-78179148642315813092011-07-04T01:39:00.004+02:002011-07-04T01:56:56.636+02:00Ode to the Liverpool EscalatorThis poem is dedicated to all the brave YouTubers that overcame the stairs at the Liverpool "ONE" mall during the last gathering in order to have dinner together at the Pizza Hut located on the top floor, when the escalator refused to work for us (probably because none of us were Scousers).<br /><br />T'was Liverpool, a rainy day,<br />as I recall some time in May.<br />After a long day walking 'round,<br />to find some grub our lot was bound.<br /><br />And in the shopping mall called "ONE"<br />we thought our odyssee was done.<br />Just up these stairs and we'd be there,<br />a pizza hut, so no despair!<br /><br />How to get up this massive slope<br />without a ladder, without rope?<br />"An escalator!" someone screamed,<br />and with bright smiles our party beamed.<br /><br />But oh the horror, oh the shame,<br />the escalator, it was lame.<br />It did not move, it did not budge,<br />seems it was carrying some grudge.<br /><br />So sick from hunger, in despair,<br />we climed on foot stair after stair.<br />Exhausted we arrived on top,<br />when suddenly we heard a pop.<br /><br />The escalator started moving.<br />Was there some point that it was proving?<br />The thing, it clearly was a hater!<br />A spiteful, racist escalator!Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4545208049798072255.post-72339773760133688452011-06-29T10:22:00.000+02:002011-06-29T12:40:17.002+02:00My June Girl (and Boy) - tribute to Alliance of DemonsIsn't it adorable how those who consider themselves freethinkers and skeptics are often those who don't think or question anything at all, and instead swallow everything they are told because they are in one way or another attracted to the person feeding them bullshit? One could say these people are into verbal scat.<br /><br />Since my beloved stalkers, the AllianceOfDemons, have created the wonderful idea of me announcing a "Girl of the Month", someone new I have "issues" with each month, I decided to pick up on this great idea and nominate them myself to save the trolls the trouble.<br /><br />So without further ado, here is my nominee for the month of June:<br /><br /><a style="font-weight: bold;" href="http://www.youtube.com/xxxild">xxxild</a><br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg5-9ypkgHknKZOxs4advgCYj4_YCrmcl6BoGo5zkuLJvrOtLrnZuHaxJ6WlFc1VP0kiceBdA06GwOiMGL9mnFEjRIW54bz00mycaOoefA87xTEJv0dVefLsXSMu4uTQnd_3Hq5odXuDPya/s1600/xxxild.jpg"><img style="float:left; margin:0 10px 10px 0;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 70px; height: 65px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg5-9ypkgHknKZOxs4advgCYj4_YCrmcl6BoGo5zkuLJvrOtLrnZuHaxJ6WlFc1VP0kiceBdA06GwOiMGL9mnFEjRIW54bz00mycaOoefA87xTEJv0dVefLsXSMu4uTQnd_3Hq5odXuDPya/s400/xxxild.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5623559266869814002" border="0" /></a>You may ask why. Isn't xxxild a respected member of the pro-sex feminist community on YouTube? Perhaps so, but the question should be whether she deserves the respect she is receiving. Other than regurgitating statements made by other feminists over and over again, I have yet to see her contribute anything original. But that is not my reason to have "issues" with her.<br /><br />Let me elaborate on the actual problem:<br /><br />Most of you by now know about the problems I had with the AoD after I left them, ranging from online stalking to calls to my house, including death threats to my children, most of which I have posted proof for on this very blog. For those of you who don't know yet, here are a few links:<br /><br /><a href="http://felidathegeek.blogspot.com/2011/02/why-did-i-leave-aod.html">Why did I leave the AoD?</a><br /><a href="http://felidathegeek.blogspot.com/2011/02/some-more-harassment.html">Some more harassment</a><a href="http://felidathegeek.blogspot.com/2011/02/some-more-harassment.html">?</a><br /><a href="http://felidathegeek.blogspot.com/2011/03/some-people-obsess-too-much.html">Some people obsess too much...</a><br /><a href="http://felidathegeek.blogspot.com/2011/05/oh-noes-all-ebegging.html">Oh noes, all the ebegging</a><br /><br />Anyway, you get the gist. They enjoy making accusations of all sorts without any proof whatsoever. So why my "issues" with xxxild? Because she actually sides with these trolls. While doing so, she refuses to provide any proof to their claims (as do they), while simultaneously refusing to acknowledge any evidence I provide her with. One can easily compare this to a child sticking her fingers into her ears whilst loudly screaming "LALALALA". She knows fully well if she were to examine the actual evidence, she would not be able to further support her troll friends without being completely dishonest.<br /><br />How did xxxild come to be on their side to begin with? Because she is friends with their unofficial ringleader. While Zierota (also known as <a href="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ce-YkkUaZLY">DunZero</a>, some of you may remember) is the official head figure behind the AllianceOfDemons, the actual person pulling the strings is someone people may remember under the name TemoinsGirl. TemoinsGirl is the pitiful human waste that made a laughing stock of herself when threatening people that they are "on her radar"and telling them to "own their shit" while having an intro that suggested that she is either asthmatic or related to DarthVader.<br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhLuBqgAeoTcnW64Vc1boTV89PX5m2nctgTdjGGbRw1BCvSg6MUV4MXTN4LKIT3ZuVPr67o-6vUM8Rv5EQYpryfsp4u7jRlkxaS_WCEUSi_II2iAOIGEG5V965LP8EqBPLek0dx1GAU8hec/s1600/temoinsgirl.jpg"><img style="float:left; margin:0 10px 10px 0;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 70px; height: 68px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhLuBqgAeoTcnW64Vc1boTV89PX5m2nctgTdjGGbRw1BCvSg6MUV4MXTN4LKIT3ZuVPr67o-6vUM8Rv5EQYpryfsp4u7jRlkxaS_WCEUSi_II2iAOIGEG5V965LP8EqBPLek0dx1GAU8hec/s400/temoinsgirl.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5623566024388404498" border="0" /></a>Apparently attracted to the heavy breathing (or the fact that TemoinsGirl enjoys flaunting her bared arse on skype cam to anyone willing to suck up to her in exchange), <a href="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8lyA3o8sj4E">xxxild was already connected to TemoinsGirl</a> before my trouble with AoD began. While giving me minor shit in comments originally, I still tried to be patient and had quite a few talks with her in the hopes that there is some brain underneath that pretty hair (by the way, is that a bleach job gone wrong, or did you prematurely turn white? Just curious). Patience, so I found out later, that I could have applied to much more useful things such as watching paint dry.<br /><br />Shit hit the fan with our colourless lady, when I took an issue with another one of her friends, MsBloodWolf, also known as FateWolf, over a video in which she not only made a lot of unfounded accusations claiming to "know shit", but also flat out told a person to kill herself, emphasizing on the fact that she never, not even in jest, told anyone to kill themselves before, but really meant it in this case. While I personally may have had issues with the person in question in the past, I have found her to be someone that is willing to listen and discuss things, and I have major issues with people who, for whatever reason, wish death on other people. xxxild apparently disagrees and thinks it is a perfectly fine thing to do, because after I spoke out against that video she went fully hostile, ending up in a <a href="http://www.youtube.com/all_comments?v=wMyFwZc0ftg">comment exchange</a> in which her only argument was parroting the accusations of the AoD trolls, failing to provide any evidence for these accusations, refusing to look at evidence provided to her and last but not least repeatedly telling me to fuck off. This complete failure of applying unbiased judgement and skepticism has earned her the honorary position of being my June Girl 2011. Congratulations, xxxild!<br /><br />Inspired by the Girl of the Month idea, and not wanting to appear sexist, I have decided to also nominate a Boy of the Month. June's Boy of the Month award goes to:<br /><br /><a style="font-weight: bold;" href="http://www.youtube.com/SmilingSkeptic">SmilingSkeptic</a><br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh0BDMx5u8aGYg3iafWb3fE9QNxA4BtJ5Rph6dOzL8Dg2iVYfvHUmqFDNK_Bz44S5Q5CANFjH9Nc8j0_O-9LwyM-lWyV81zxiqWajsZweTBzRiEC1qGR0R9df0QgvI7fDLixYOHKHyzkYwD/s1600/smilingskeptic.jpg"><img style="float:left; margin:0 10px 10px 0;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 70px; height: 69px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh0BDMx5u8aGYg3iafWb3fE9QNxA4BtJ5Rph6dOzL8Dg2iVYfvHUmqFDNK_Bz44S5Q5CANFjH9Nc8j0_O-9LwyM-lWyV81zxiqWajsZweTBzRiEC1qGR0R9df0QgvI7fDLixYOHKHyzkYwD/s400/smilingskeptic.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5623571033098515938" border="0" /></a>The humour can already be found in his choice of name, since SmilingSkeptic barely ever smiles, nor is he very skeptical. As xxxild, SmilingSkeptic ended up on "my radar" (yes, I went there!), when he left some rather <a href="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=el_QXNxnKXg">interesting comments</a> on my original video in which I explained why I had left the AoD. In that video I mockingly ate some pastry and in the description linked to my blog post <a href="http://felidathegeek.blogspot.com/2011/02/why-did-i-leave-aod.html">Why did I leave the AoD?</a>. Without ever reading this post, he immediately accused me of trying to cause trouble, which I found a bit strange, seeing how my blog post contained evidence that I had been harassed by AoD long before I made the blog entry and video. While SmilingSkeptic left these pretty nasty comments, I was in a Skype call with DeathOfSpeech and SoretaYuki, both of whom insisted that a chat with SmilingSkeptic would get him to see reason and stop attacking me, so I agreed to have him join the call, although I already greatly mistrusted him. I found out later that until he joined us in our call, he had been in a call with none other than the very AoD trolls that had been harassing me, getting his queue from them.<br /><br />In our call I heard for the first time that TemoinsGirl accused me of having threatened to make it public that she had gotten raped. An accusation that I found rather odd, as I did not even know that she was a rape victim. Funny that the very person accusing me of threatening to make it public was the one telling me about it, eh? SmilingSkeptic kept insisting that I had made such a threat, yet failed to provide me with any evidence supporting that claim, despite my repeated inquiry. Instead he accused me of having faked my evidence, which is why I offered him access to my Skype account, so he could look at unaltered logs, an offer he turned down with the words "That won't be neccessary." Well no, SmilingSkeptic, of course not, because then you would have no leg to stand on with your continued claims that I altered screenshots, which you damn well know, don't you, you dishonest prat?<br /><br />Needless to say, SmilingSkeptic joined the AoD team for whatever reason (although my guess is that he, as xxxild, is attracted to RadarGirl) and continued to throw around unfounded accusations while rejecting proper evidence. The continued accusation of rape shaming, something repeated by both xxxild and SmilingSkeptic resurfaced, when I had a discussion with TheAmazingAtheist about "accountability" of the victim, which is nothing other than "rape shaming light", and clearly took a stance against the claim that rape victims should ask themselves whether they shouldn't be partially accountable for the crime committed against them due to their behaviour leading up to the crime itself. <a href="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=n6bNFdFPKq4">DeathOfSpeech made a very good video</a> as a response to mine, and SmilingSkeptic, in his continued vendetta, attacked DoS while yet again referring to me as a rape shamer, as he did in our first talk ever, while defending TJ, the very person who claimed rape victims should accept accountability! He calls me a rape shamer when I did nothing at all, while he actually defends a lighter version of rape shaming? Seriously? So to SmilingSkeptic, the boy who never smiles and lacks skepticism, congratulations for being my Boy of the Month June 2011!Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4545208049798072255.post-66112034989333340822011-06-15T17:54:00.000+02:002011-06-15T19:15:26.476+02:00Transcript of my response to TJ's blog entryToday's rant is aimed at none other than TJ, also known as TheAmazingAtheist.<br /><br />A few days ago TJ sent out a tweet, linking to a blog entry of his. The first thing you will see on there is this picture:<br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi4UXrBGzFjl-WD061kueO999bRtwE1hC3MD-z3XPEllpWZ1Wqn4X0RPBgkgZtNgXx1hzq5thUpzwVdElHkP_qdYBlPYKb56hh32OjTmiW8QrGgah-sjk1o4FwziBjbBMe8cKTpJHD1qUe7/s1600/01+slutwalk.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 400px; height: 267px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi4UXrBGzFjl-WD061kueO999bRtwE1hC3MD-z3XPEllpWZ1Wqn4X0RPBgkgZtNgXx1hzq5thUpzwVdElHkP_qdYBlPYKb56hh32OjTmiW8QrGgah-sjk1o4FwziBjbBMe8cKTpJHD1qUe7/s400/01+slutwalk.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5618476258968088002" border="0" /></a><br />I'm assuming that picture was taken during the "slutwalk" protest, which originally began in Toronto and soon spread further after Constable Michael Sanguinetti, a Toronto Police officer, suggested that in order not to be victimized, "women should avoid dressing like sluts."<br /><br />TJ asserts in his first line, that we are discouraged from looking at complicated multi-faceted answers when it comes to rape. This already makes me wonder in which way we are discouraged, because women stand up against some outrageous statements that still occur way too often. In just about every rape trial the sexual history of the victim is examined in order to make her claim to rape less believable. "If she is a slut anyway, how do we know she didn't want to sleep with this man?"<br /><br />Since TJ later in the article resorts to comparing rape to being robbed, I will quickly resort to the same measure here. Can we assume that someone who regularly donates money to charity or gives a few coins to beggars on the street also is fine with being robbed? No, we can't. Rape is the only crime where the victim's previous behavior has an influence on the judgement of the person who committed the crime.<br /><br />He continues by stating<br /><blockquote style="font-style: italic;">"Don’t get me wrong, blaming a girls flirtatious nature or revealing outfit is repugnant and probably inaccurate. However, just declaring, “rape happens cuz rapists is evul!” is nearly as stupid."</blockquote>Probably? There is no probably about that claim being inaccurate. The worsd should be "MOST DEFINITELY".<br /><br />And fortunately nobody really makes a claim like this, TJ. As someone who accused me of strawmanning when I asked if I should wear a burka in a sarcastic exaggeration to your claim we should take "precautions" to not get raped later on in your post, I find your accusation rather hypocritical, considering you did it yourself as early as the second paragraph of your post. Nobody makes this particular claim, however, rape happens due to the nature of the rapist, not<br />the nature of the victim.<br /><br />While you refer to rates of rape, what constitutes rape and attitudes towards victims being different from society to society, a discussion which I will gladly enter at another time, it has not much to do with the way your blog entry continues. Plenty of studies have by now shown quite well that rape is not just about the sexual act, but about exerting power over the victim without the victim's consent. If sex were all rapists are after, chemical castration, which is applied in some countries, would be a success in stopping repeat offenders, but it has clearly failed.<br /><br />So while in Sweden you can be declared a rapist for a burst condom during consentual sex, which I personally find highly ridiculous, it is still perfectly legal in some other countries to force your wife to have intercourse, if needed by applying physical violence. We are all aware of that, but I am fairly sure that the Saudi wife who was married off at age 14 feels just as violated when the husband she never knew before forces himself on her as the woman who had a drink too much at a dinner party in NY and is raped by some stranger that abuses her vulnerability.<br /><br />It appears to me your little discourse into various ways of dealing with rape in various societies is more or less a decoy to take attention away from the issue you really wish to address later on, and that is the accountability.<br /><br />You claim that while you know the accountability rests on the shoulders of the rapist, this is out of pragmatism rather than honest inquiry into where the blame lies, and that is where you journey off, slowly, into blaming the victim for the crime committed against her or him.<br /><br />It starts out with the subtle hint<br /><blockquote style="font-style: italic;">"I’d say victims are nearly entirely ruled out as being anywhere near responsible or “to blame” for what happened to them."</blockquote>Is that really so? Why then, do police investigations in a rape always dig into the sexual history of the victim? Why is it such a common procedure in court to display the victim as someone who is "sleeping around" and "easy"? When you get mugged on the street and your wallet is stolen from you, are you questioned about the possibility that you actually wanted to give the robber money, because you have a history of helping out others financially? The fact remains that people such as Constable Michael Sanguinetti are not that rare, on the contrary. Rape victims worldwide still have to deal with being partially blamed, whether it is because they were drunk at a party or because they "didn't fight back enough". The latter one often being a reason for dismissal of a legitimate rape case, since no signs of injury can be found that resemble anything worse than rough sex. It appears that rape is the only crime where you are expected to put up a fight even if this means your life may be in more danger. Nobody will put any blame on you if you hand your wallet over to a robber, on the contrary, fighting back is considered stupid.<br /><blockquote style="font-style: italic;">"But we’re in denial if we think that environmental factors, genetic abnormalities, mental illnesses, societal attitudes, belief systems and particular subcultures don’t have an impact."</blockquote>And who ever claimed they do not? However, what impact do these factors have on the amount of blame you wish to impose on the victim? Environmental factors occasionally make it easier for a rapist to get away with rape, yes. Genetic abnormalities may play a part in tendencies to becoming a rapist, yes. Mental illnesses, societal attitudes, belief systems and particular subcultures... What influence does the victim of a violent crime have on these factors? Close<br />to none. I call this paragraph yet another decoy to take away from your final assertion. While you can positively assert from these factors that the rapist is influenced by them and hence may be less aware of his wrongdoings, in the most extreme cases to the point where he will not be able to be blamed at all, either due to severe mental illness or because the form of rape he committed is considered acceptable in his cultural and religious society, none of this is anything the victim has any influence on, unless she severely limits her own freedom and personal rights for the sake of safety, and even then these measures often are futile, as a large amount of rapes actually happens within a close circle of friends and family, people you trust or are subject to regardless of precautions.<br /><blockquote style="font-style: italic;">"Saying someone didn’t take the proper precautions to prevent getting robbed isn’t going to upset them—someone who was robbed, even though they’re not directly responsible for what happened, are usually able to accept that maybe they didn’t take proper precautions."</blockquote>It is your proposed but undefined precautions I originally wanted to hear about when I sarcastically asked you whether I should wear a burka, and you have so far failed to elaborate on the precautions you suggest people should take to avoid being raped. We all learn not to accept candy or rides from strangers as children. We are all taught to say "NO" in a loud voice and call for help to put a potential rapist off. A lot of us took self defense classes. But looking at the majority of rape cases, it appears that these precautions are not enough. How do you defend yourself when you are a child or adolescent being molested by a family member? How do you defend yourself when someone puts a knife to your throat? Do you trust your self defense abilities enough to be faster than your rapist's flick of a wrist? Do you suggest we are to be partially blamed for leading social lives, going out to parties and occasionally consuming alcohol, sometimes perhaps a bit too much? I really am curious which precautions you assume rape victims are not taking for you to keep insisting that we SHOULD question whether the victim is to be partially blamed.<br /><blockquote style="font-style: italic;">"It’s a lot harder for a rape victim to accept that level of responsibility, due to the psychological trauma associated with rape."</blockquote>You assume it is a lot harder for a rape victim to accept a level of responsibility, and I have to ask: Are you joking? The large majority of rape victims falsely blames themselves after a rape. A large amount of rapes never even gets reported because of this. The victim feels ashamed, guilty, filthy and it often takes extensive therapy to get over the feeling of self blame for something she or he had absolutely no control over. And you dare claim they refuse to accept a level of responsibility? Either you really slacked on your research before posting this blog entry, or you are being completely dishonest. I hope it's the first of the two.<br /><blockquote style="font-style: italic;">"But at the same time, to act as if victims are totally powerless and there is simply nothing they could have done is usually somewhat factually and intellectually dishonest. And it doesn’t really serve the best interest of women as a whole to adopt the attitude that they’re in no way accountable for their own well-being when it comes to rape."</blockquote>And again, I have to ask you which precautions you propose. In the majority of cases the victim IS powerless. It is a crime based on exerting power over someone who is defenseless. There is nothing factually and intellectually dishonest about this, unless you know some miracle defense system that will not restrict the freedom of a potential victim. Because personally, I refuse to give up freedom for security, else I may as well wear a burka and lock myself up in my house. And you can call that strawmanning all you want.<br /><br /><a href="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6Ce4Xcy4Az4">Video to this script</a><br /><a href="http://amazingatheist.tumblr.com/post/6358108674/you-ever-notice-that-rape-is-one-of-those-issues">TJ's blog entry</a><br /><a href="http://www.youtube.com/TheAmazingAtheist">TJ's YouTube channel</a><br /><a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/SlutWalk">What is SlutWalk?</a><br /><a href="http://www.d.umn.edu/cla/faculty/jhamlin/3925/myths.html">Rape Myths</a><br /><a href="http://www.youtube.com/FelidaTheG33k">My main YouTube channel</a>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4545208049798072255.post-71507572691822956042011-06-09T09:08:00.001+02:002011-06-09T14:22:12.797+02:00Recap of the Liverpool YouTube Meetup<span style="font-weight: bold;">Hello YouTubers and other readers,</span><br /><br />I am finally taking the time to write about the Liverpool meetup, which was a weekend of great fun with awesome people. So here is my little diary of the weekend:<br /><br /><span style="font-weight: bold;">Friday, 27th of May</span> <span style="font-weight: bold;">2011</span><br />Flying out from Frankfurt Airport, I first headed to Amsterdam, as there are no direct flights to Liverpool. Let me tell you that Schiphol is quite a large airport, and despite a layover of almost an hour, I had no time to relax at all. Arriving at the airport in Liverpool at around 9:30PM I waited for the arrival of my ex-boyfriend Gerard, who also flew in from Amsterdam, but with a different airline. Seems Easyjet knows some kind of shortcut, since his plane arrived 20 minutes before schedule, which was a good thing, as it meant 20 minutes less waiting time for me.<br /><br />Gerard and I took the bus to Lime Street Station and with the help of a map of Liverpool that we grabbed at the airport we actually found our way to the Travelodge without having to resort to any kind of GPS. Amazing achievement for two geeks! After checking into our hotel room and a quick freshening up, we headed to the <a href="http://www.theshipandmitre.com/">Ship&Mitre</a> to meet up with the others fairly late. I can only recommend this place for anyone travelling to Liverpool. For the first time ever I was actually able to drink a proper beer in England!<br /><br />After a fun time at the pub we headed back to the hotel, while <a href="http://www.youtube.com/ShredderNeverDies">Shredder</a> and a few others went to fetch pizza for all of us, which we ate in the hotel lobby. The fact that our hotel lacked a hotel bar was the only downside to this gathering, but we coped and spent the rest of the evening in Shredder's hotel room, doing a blogTV show.<br /><br /><span style="font-weight: bold;">Saturday, 28th of May 2011</span><br /><br />Considering Gerard and I both had a rather exhausting Friday, we opted out of joining the others for the visit of the <a href="http://www.liverpoolmetrocathedral.org.uk/">Metropolitan Cathedral</a>, but met up with them for lunch at <a href="http://www.beerintheevening.com/pubs/s/62/6265/Pumphouse/Liverpool">The Pump House</a> . Afterwards people opted to see a variety of museums or just hang out. Since coffee at the hotel was horrible, Gerard and I joined <a href="http://www.youtube.com/DLandonCole">Landon</a> and had some coffee while waiting for our turn on <a href="http://www.theyellowduckmarine.co.uk/">The Yellow Duckmarine</a>. We didn't quite know what to expect and originally thought it was going to be a simple sightseeing tour on land and water, but it turned out to be a fun mix of sightseeing and genuine entertainment. Our tour guide was quite a comedian, and I can only recommend you try this out yourself, should you ever stay in Liverpool.<br /><br />Gerard and I met up with my friend Gareth in the late afternoon, picking him up from Lime Street Station, then we re-joined the others for the rest of the day. Our pub for the evening was <a href="http://www.beerintheevening.com/pubs/s/21/21807/Baltic_Fleet/Liverpool">The Baltic Fleet</a>, which wasn't too bad, but could not quite compare to the Ship&Mitre. We were however able to take this wonderful picture here:<br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj-xQN9nOIVoK0sR8wrGBJ-sBFeMVAUxQaV3F1rdz_heiSn90KOusISysYd7h9B7UnP5D12tufoDSTBWF2wdocA8ndtHFM9TsvxkXGR0WANCigjRtWP6N8RsZx1e-63amD2uTnN3thrquSb/s1600/IMG001+Shredder+eats+Scouse.JPG"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 400px; height: 300px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj-xQN9nOIVoK0sR8wrGBJ-sBFeMVAUxQaV3F1rdz_heiSn90KOusISysYd7h9B7UnP5D12tufoDSTBWF2wdocA8ndtHFM9TsvxkXGR0WANCigjRtWP6N8RsZx1e-63amD2uTnN3thrquSb/s400/IMG001+Shredder+eats+Scouse.JPG" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5616125463701757474" border="0" /></a><br />While at the Baltic Fleet we were also able to finally perform the collaring ceremony of Shredder, something we had been wanting to do in London already. Shredder, being my "blogTV bitch" (ever since I realized that having him co-host gives me more viewers) jokingly agreed to wear a collar and leash, which we put on him that night.<br /><br />Dinner for that night was consumed at <a href="http://maps.google.de/maps?oe=utf-8&rls=org.mozilla:de:official&client=firefox-a&um=1&ie=UTF-8&q=Pizza+Hut+Liverpool&fb=1&gl=de&hq=Pizza+Hut&hnear=0x487adf8a647060b7:0x42dc046f3f176e01,Liverpool,+Vereinigtes+K%C3%B6nigreich&ei=433wTYuuM4SXOoyEhL0D&sa=X&oi=local_group&ct=image&ved=0CAQQtgM&iwloc=cids:9555542851546206814">Pizza Hut</a>, and I think I discovered Liverpool's filthiest bathroom there. Having entered said bathroom before dinner, I noticed a lack of usable toilet paper in most of the stalls, since someone with a warped sense of humour had decided to unroll it all onto the floor. Having informed the staff about the situation, I was promised it would be handled, but when I went again after dinner, nothing had been done at all. I hope their kitchen is in better shape than their bathroom.<br /><br />While some of us (mainly <a href="http://www.youtube.com/AbbyNormal0ne">Abby</a> and <a href="http://www.youtube.com/GingerGreek">GingerGreek</a>) went out clubbing later that night, I was still fairly worn out from the day before and had an early night, hugging my pillow instead.<br /><br /><span style="font-weight: bold;">Sunday, 29th of May 2011</span><br /><br />We once again skipped out of morning fun with the others, missing the <a href="http://www.merseyferries.co.uk/content/Cruises/RiverExplorerCruises.aspx">Ferry 'cross the Mersey</a> tour, but joined them for lunch, which we planned to have somewhere in Chinatown. It took us a while to find a restaurant that was able to accomodate all of us, and the food could have been better, but the service was friendly enough.<br /><br />Afterwards we again split up into little groups, having time for museum visits, shopping tours, etc. Being worn out from walking around (damn you, arthritis!), Gerard, Gareth and I joined Landon in sitting at the café inside the <a href="http://www.liverpoolmuseums.org.uk/walker/">Walker Art Gallery</a>, because what could possibly be more relaxing than having a cup of Latte Macchiato while surrounded by art?<br /><br />Our pub for Sunday evening was <a href="http://www.beerintheevening.com/pubs/s/12/12213/Thomas_Rigbys/Liverpool">Rigby's</a>, where I devoured Shredder's nachos while he was busy snogging various people (see video). While the food and beer could have been better, the location itself was very nice, with a large outside area in the back. Finally a place where I was able to drink my beer and smoke at the same time.<br /><br />We ended the evening with yet another blogTV show in Shredder's room, beer courtesy of <a href="http://www.youtube.com/Rhysz1">Rhysz</a>. Having to get up at 6AM the next morning to catch my flight back home, I didn't stick around too long, but still had fun.<br /><br /><span style="font-weight: bold;">Monday, 30th of May 2011</span><br /><br />Getting up early sucks. Oh, and did I mention yet that the "business breakfast package" served by the Travelodge is a joke? You get a muffin, a crossaint, cornflakes and orange juice and pay over 4 quid for that. Really not worth it at all.<br /><br />Anyhow, having to catch my flight, I took a taxi back to the airport. Taxi driver was quite chatty with a typical scouser accent. Hard to understand, but nice fellow. I even had time for some real coffee at the airport before boarding the plane that would take me back to Germany. My layover in Amsterdam was a bit longer this time, so I actually had time to sit around and begin editing my footage. The final result can be seen here:<br /><br /><center><iframe src="http://www.youtube.com/embed/P0HzenmuTkc" allowfullscreen="" frameborder="0" height="249" width="400"></iframe></center><br /><br />All in all, this gathering was epic. The people were great, and we had loads of fun.<br /><br />Just because I know you are curious, here is a list of those who attended:<br /><br /><a href="http://www.youtube.com/abbynormal0ne" target="_blank" title="http://www.youtube.com/abbynormal0ne" rel="nofollow" dir="ltr" class="yt-uix-redirect-link">http://www.youtube.com/abbynormal0ne</a> (who can sing like an angel despite a horrible cold)<br /><a href="http://www.youtube.com/bespokegroupuk" target="_blank" title="http://www.youtube.com/bespokegroupuk" rel="nofollow" dir="ltr" class="yt-uix-redirect-link">http://www.youtube.com/bespokegroupuk</a> (who is really silent in real life)<br /><a href="http://www.youtube.com/bossman103" target="_blank" title="http://www.youtube.com/bossman103" rel="nofollow" dir="ltr" class="yt-uix-redirect-link">http://www.youtube.com/bossman103</a> (who always smiles)<br /><a href="http://www.youtube.com/collinmaessen" target="_blank" title="http://www.youtube.com/collinmaessen" rel="nofollow" dir="ltr" class="yt-uix-redirect-link">http://www.youtube.com/collinmaessen</a> (who has a cute grin)<br /><a href="http://www.youtube.com/christinepeace" target="_blank" title="http://www.youtube.com/christinepeace" rel="nofollow" dir="ltr" class="yt-uix-redirect-link">http://www.youtube.com/christinepeace</a> (who got screwed over in Bulgaria)<br /><a href="http://www.youtube.com/dlandoncole" target="_blank" title="http://www.youtube.com/dlandoncole" rel="nofollow" dir="ltr" class="yt-uix-redirect-link">http://www.youtube.com/dlandoncole</a> (who arranged this entire thing! THANKS!)<br /><a href="http://www.youtube.com/gingergreek" target="_blank" title="http://www.youtube.com/gingergreek" rel="nofollow" dir="ltr" class="yt-uix-redirect-link">http://www.youtube.com/gingergreek</a> (who is still the most cuddly man of the bunch)<br /><a href="http://www.youtube.com/gunderson002" target="_blank" title="http://www.youtube.com/gunderson002" rel="nofollow" dir="ltr" class="yt-uix-redirect-link">http://www.youtube.com/gunderson002</a> (who got his first kiss...from Shredder!)<br /><a href="http://www.youtube.com/habulinec" target="_blank" title="http://www.youtube.com/habulinec" rel="nofollow" dir="ltr" class="yt-uix-redirect-link">http://www.youtube.com/habulinec</a> (who looks like FakeSagan)<br /><a href="http://www.youtube.com/hospitalier14" target="_blank" title="http://www.youtube.com/hospitalier14" rel="nofollow" dir="ltr" class="yt-uix-redirect-link">http://www.youtube.com/hospitalier14</a> (who is the brother of fakefakesagan)<br /><a href="http://www.youtube.com/latumway" target="_blank" title="http://www.youtube.com/latumway" rel="nofollow" dir="ltr" class="yt-uix-redirect-link">http://www.youtube.com/latumway</a> (who does the most heartmelting lipsynching)<br /><a href="http://www.youtube.com/mrsoprano0125" target="_blank" title="http://www.youtube.com/mrsoprano0125" rel="nofollow" dir="ltr" class="yt-uix-redirect-link">http://www.youtube.com/mrsoprano0125</a> (who wasn't around enough)<br /><a href="http://www.youtube.com/mslauwein" target="_blank" title="http://www.youtube.com/mslauwein" rel="nofollow" dir="ltr" class="yt-uix-redirect-link">http://www.youtube.com/mslauwein</a> (who needs to start making videos)<br /><a href="http://www.youtube.com/nauroticdax" target="_blank" title="http://www.youtube.com/nauroticdax" rel="nofollow" dir="ltr" class="yt-uix-redirect-link">http://www.youtube.com/nauroticdax</a> (who is ticklish)<br /><a href="http://www.youtube.com/nightmare060" target="_blank" title="http://www.youtube.com/nightmare060" rel="nofollow" dir="ltr" class="yt-uix-redirect-link">http://www.youtube.com/nightmare060</a> (who was only there the first day)<br /><a href="http://www.youtube.com/paulchartley" target="_blank" title="http://www.youtube.com/paulchartley" rel="nofollow" dir="ltr" class="yt-uix-redirect-link">http://www.youtube.com/paulchartley</a> (who had to leave way too early)<br /><a href="http://www.youtube.com/rhysz1" target="_blank" title="http://www.youtube.com/rhysz1" rel="nofollow" dir="ltr" class="yt-uix-redirect-link">http://www.youtube.com/rhysz1</a> (who got beaten up by girls)<br /><a href="http://www.youtube.com/shredderneverdies" target="_blank" title="http://www.youtube.com/shredderneverdies" rel="nofollow" dir="ltr" class="yt-uix-redirect-link">http://www.youtube.com/shredderneverdies</a> (who looks good on a leash)<br /><a href="http://www.youtube.com/stanmarsh1" target="_blank" title="http://www.youtube.com/stanmarsh1" rel="nofollow" dir="ltr" class="yt-uix-redirect-link">http://www.youtube.com/stanmarsh1</a> (who found his feminine side)<br /><a href="http://www.youtube.com/stealthbadger" target="_blank" title="http://www.youtube.com/stealthbadger" rel="nofollow" dir="ltr" class="yt-uix-redirect-link">http://www.youtube.com/stealthbadger</a> (who can think fourdimensional)<br /><a href="http://www.youtube.com/stefzula" target="_blank" title="http://www.youtube.com/stefzula" rel="nofollow" dir="ltr" class="yt-uix-redirect-link">http://www.youtube.com/stefzula</a> (who eats pizza like a real Jersey girl)<br /><a href="http://www.youtube.com/ujames1978" target="_blank" title="http://www.youtube.com/ujames1978" rel="nofollow" dir="ltr" class="yt-uix-redirect-link">http://www.youtube.com/ujames1978</a> (who made us all feel like midgets)<br /><a href="http://www.youtube.com/watercrane" target="_blank" title="http://www.youtube.com/watercrane" rel="nofollow" dir="ltr" class="yt-uix-redirect-link">http://www.youtube.com/watercrane</a> (who can give epic massages)<br /><br />Without channel:<br />Katie (who is a total sweetheart and StanMarsh1's girlfriend)<br />Gerard (whose hair fascinated Katie)<br />PaulCHartley's wife (whose name I didn't catch, shame on me!)<br /><br />See you at the next gathering,<br />FelUnknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4545208049798072255.post-76979381679276851372011-05-23T13:39:00.000+02:002011-05-23T14:05:49.549+02:00Dear Desteni Movement...<p>I have watched you try to scam people for a while now. I have also watched as you filed false DMCA notices and flagged channels down that exposed you for what you are: A cult like organization that is trying to scam money out of people via a pyramid scheme. I have watched as good channels were permanently shut down for the simple reason of exposing you. And I have decided that I won't watch any longer.</p><p>As you may have noticed, a lot of the counternotices to your false DMCAs recently filed had MY name on them. That's right, MY name, which is perfectly legal, as I have accepted a co-ownership of the videos you had falsely removed. Falsely removed, because they were covered by the fair use provision. As a bit of a reminder, here is what copyright law has to say about fair use:</p><blockquote>17 U.S.C. § 107<br />Notwithstanding the provisions of sections 17 U.S.C. § 106 and 17 U.S.C. § 106A, the fair use of a copyrighted work, including such use by reproduction in copies or phonorecords or by any other means specified by that section, for purposes such as criticism, comment, news reporting, teaching (including multiple copies for classroom use), scholarship, or research, is not an infringement of copyright. In determining whether the use made of a work in any particular case is a fair use the factors to be considered shall include:<br />the purpose and character of the use, including whether such use is of a commercial nature or is for nonprofit educational purposes;<br />the nature of the copyrighted work;<br />the amount and substantiality of the portion used in relation to the copyrighted work as a whole; and<br />the effect of the use upon the potential market for or value of the copyrighted work.<br />The fact that a work is unpublished shall not itself bar a finding of fair use if such finding is made upon consideration of all the above factors.</blockquote><p>You will notice that none of the videos you filed a DMCA claim against were of any commercial interest. The sole purpose of these videos was to critizise and comment on your money making scheme that you so blatantly hide behind your supposed social and environmental program.<br /></p><p>Since you had the courtesy to publish my full name on your website after receiving the counternotices (and I have no doubt in my mind that you passed the rest of my details on to your members), I have decided to do a bit more than the friends that have simply tried to expose your scams on YouTube. Your pyramid scheme is illegal in many of the countries you operate in, including the country you operate out of. I may not live in South Africa, but fortunately one can report activities such as yours from outside of your country as well. So I have contacted the <strong>Financial Service Board</strong> South Africa to report you, and I suggest anyone who got scammed, false DMCAed, doc dropped or otherwise harassed by you do the same.</p><p><strong>The website for the FSB: <a href="http://www.fsb.co.za/">http://www.fsb.co.za/</a></strong></p><p>For residents of South Africa there is a toll free phone number to call:</p><p><strong>Fraud and Ethics Hotline: 0800 313 626</strong></p><p>For those not residing in South Africa, there is an email:<strong><br /></strong></p><p><strong>fsb@tip-offs.com<br /></strong></p><p>And to show you I am not kidding around, here is a transcript of the email I wrote:<strong><br /></strong></p><blockquote>from XXXXXXX@gmail.com<br />to fsb@tip-offs.com<br />date Mon, May 23, 2011 at 12:29 PM<br />subject Desteni movement pyramid scheme<br />mailed-by gmail.com<br /><br />hide details 12:29 PM (1 hour ago) <br /><br />Dear Sirs,<br /><br />there is a movement operating out of South Africa that, under the<br />guise of political and social interests, operates a pyramid scheme<br />that I believe to be illegal. Their operations by now are<br />internationally done, but their main location of operation is still in<br />South Africa, which is also where their website is hosted.<br /><br />They sell rather dodgy self-exploration online courses, for which you<br />are supposed to pay a monthly fee of 200 Euro, and give you the option<br />to earn these courses and additional income by recruiting more people<br />for these courses. Income generated from these recruits and their<br />recruits respectively will only be paid to you, if you continue paying<br />your monthly fee of 200 Euro yourself. To gain a better overview,<br />please visit their website which clearly shows how their pyramid<br />scheme is built:<br /><br /><a href="http://desteniiprocess.com/income">http://desteniiprocess.com/income</a> Overview of what they claim is the<br />possible income.<br /><a href="http://desteniiprocess.com/pricing">http://desteniiprocess.com/pricing</a> Overview of the amounts they<br />require you to pay.<br /><a href="http://desteniiprocess.com/courses">http://desteniiprocess.com/courses</a> Overview of the "courses" they<br />offer for these amounts.<br /><br />The website is registered to the name of<br /><br />Susan Elizabeth Spies<br />PO Box 641 Msunduzi<br />Pietermaritzburg, 3231, ZA<br /><br />and the listed admin contact is<br /><br />Andrea Rossouw<br />Desteni<br />P O Box 641 Msunduzi<br />Pietermaritzburg, 3231, ZA<br />phone: +08 61378364<br /><br />Any attempt to expose this pyramid scheme online is met by falsely<br />filed DMCA notices, people who file counternotices have their privacy<br />violated by this group making contact details public to all their<br />members.<br /><br />I sincerely hope that you will investigate this matter. Should you<br />require further information, I will gladly provide you with any<br />details I have so far been able to find out about this group.<br /><br />Sincerely,<br />XXXXXXX</blockquote><p><br />Now before anyone whinges about me having "doc dropped" these poor Desteni people, let me tell you that this information is freely available when you check on the whois information for the website mentioned above. It does not take special skills to find this info and they publish these names and addresses themselves, unlike the people they have doc dropped after receiving their details from counternotices to fraudulent DMCA claims.<br /></p><p>So there we go, Desteni. I hope you enjoy the attention. Have a nice day!</p>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4545208049798072255.post-43463517161366091832011-05-15T03:10:00.000+02:002011-05-15T03:46:48.581+02:00Science and Education FTWTF?<p>Let me get this straight, I have not always disliked Thunderf00t. Actually, Thunderf00t was one of the first atheist channels I subscribed to when I realized there are other atheists on YouTube. I sat through the time when he received false DMCAs, I mirrored his videos (tiny as my channel was at the time), I began making videos because I wanted to show support. As a matter of fact, that was the reason I even began making videos, to help other people fight against false DMCAs and flags, because free speech is one of the things I value most.</p><p>But what has changed since then? Well, first of all, Thunderf00t seems to have turned from what I perceived as a reasonable and logically thinking person into someone who will not listen to reason and logical arguments anymore. It may very well be that my original perception of Thunderf00t was already warped though, who knows.</p><p>What I do know is that the more I saw of people voicing valid criticism, the more I saw Thunderf00t dismiss them and instead respond to either trolls or easy targets with no valid arguments, presenting them to his audience as the voices of his detractors. When people I considered friends made video responses with valid criticism, they went completely ignored until the moment we finally resignated and jokingly made a video blowing raspberries. And of all the videos he could have responded to, he decided to pick that particular one, and as if that wasn't enough, he didn't even give me the credit I felt was due, but presented Coughlan666 (now known as <a href="http://www.youtube.com/Coughlan616">Coughlan616</a>) as the organizer of this video. Granted, he was my inspiration, after seeing him blow the original raspberry during the London YouTube gathering, but the idea to get many people on cam to blow raspberries at Thunderf00t was mine, damn it! Credit where credit is due, even if it is for a childish thing!</p><p>Back onto the issue though, in his response then, he diagnosed Coughlan with some mental disorder he found on wikipedia... oh wait, that the troll amet found on wikipedia and Thunderf00t just copied, in order to dismiss any of the very valid points Coughlan had raised. When he realized that people did not appreciate this below the belt attack and the voices of criticism grew even louder, he finally agreed to have a discussion with <a href="http://www.youtube.com/DLandonCole">DLandonCole</a>, which went on for quite some time, but ended up with no proper outcome and a lot of drunk people and plenty of drawn bell curves instead.</p><p>Thunderf00t then proceeded to actually ask his audience what they would prefer to see on his channel, and the overwhelming majority requested that he goes back to making science videos as he used to. Unfortunately that doesn't seem to happen though, as he felt the urge to continue attacking especially Coughlan with his more than flawed arguments. This however is not my main issue. In his attempt to "pwn" Coughlan, he is going to new heights (or should I say lows?) of unfair attacking. Not only does he quotemine, but he willingly destroys the reputation of an innocent and uninvolved person now in order to make Coughlan look bad. I don't care much about the bickering between Coughlan and Thunderf00t, I am sure Coughlan can hold his own just fine there, as he has proven repeatedly, but what I DO mind is if someone I consider a friend, who has not participated in ANY of this, gets dragged in by Thunderf00t quotemining from a joke made on blogTV and presents it as hard facts, not caring at all if the person who got dragged in has to suffer from it.</p><p>So aside from the <a href="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6umZND7G84s">very good video Peach made</a> on the issue already, my last words addressing the eternal drama whore Thunderf00t will be: <strong>Fuck you, Thunderf00t for not even bothering to clarify that <a href="http://www.youtube.com/LatumWay">LatumWay</a> was in no way connected to all of this. You knowingly threw him to your dogs just to get to Coughlan. How low is that?</strong></p>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4545208049798072255.post-72609116192025177732011-05-02T15:30:00.000+02:002011-05-02T15:52:30.965+02:00Oh noes, all the ebegging!<p><br /></p><p><br /></p><p>Funny, how some people insist that I'm paying for the Liverpool trip via e-begging to my paypal account, asking me how else I could possibly afford such a trip. Seems these people don't know about things like Lohnfortzahlung and Krankengeld. However, they keep insisting that I somehow prove that I am not funding anything via e-begged trips, and while I don't owe them any explanation at all, I am quite amused by their repeated attempts to make me look like the shocking notorious e-begger.</p><p>So here's the harsh truth, folks! FelidaTheGeek's e-begging income over the past year! Brace yourself for the ungodly amounts I received:</p><p><br /></p><br /><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgwtN3egE7dmH3CbfPjV5Pu3Xf1YREk7-s8wKTi_oug4iOeibbWFePqsvEFloynhgaA81DB6fcYEZTkwDDQzosPTCC0dovWLHoxU1jcK8jHYAKNHILxTeyFY4vadKGCiucXhqJFzgHLc3jL/s1600/oh+noes%252C+the+ebegging.jpg" onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 400px; height: 214px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgwtN3egE7dmH3CbfPjV5Pu3Xf1YREk7-s8wKTi_oug4iOeibbWFePqsvEFloynhgaA81DB6fcYEZTkwDDQzosPTCC0dovWLHoxU1jcK8jHYAKNHILxTeyFY4vadKGCiucXhqJFzgHLc3jL/s400/oh+noes%252C+the+ebegging.jpg" border="0" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5602111590056533106" /></a><br /><p>Shall I go into detail about the transactions? Oh, and click on the pic to enlarge for details.<br /></p><ol><li>April 24th: Donating 5$ towards the sex change operation for a transgendered friend.</li><li>April 12th: PayPal refunds withdrawn funds for confirmation of credit card.</li><li>April 12th: I buy a replacement screen for my netbook.</li><li>April 12th: My boyfriend sends me money for the screen (yes, I haz boyfriend!)</li><li>March 22nd: I pay for an ebay purchase (birthday present for my daughter)</li><li>August 29th: I donate to devchelle's HIV/AIDS charity.</li></ol><p>Yes, these sure are the steps of a notorious e-begger. As you can see, all the funds to pay for Liverpool must have definitely come from here! ;-)</p><p>Have a nice day!</p><p><br /></p>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4545208049798072255.post-14568307568011227432011-03-15T20:34:00.000+01:002011-03-15T20:55:52.759+01:00Some people obsess too much...<p>As you may be able to tell, I have by now decided to mostly ignore the continuous abuse from members of the AoD and dedicated most of my time to more valuable issues. I do however find it rather creepy that despite everything that's going on in the world, such as</p><p><a href="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bjOb2XPHWL4">The continuing search</a> for victims of the earthquake and tsunami in Japan,</p><p><a href="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oeo_EEZjpHg">Ongoing fights in Lybia</a> with Gaddafi's troops gaining on the rebels again,</p><p><a href="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wgkxIaAL6dk">Planned Parenthood</a> needing support to continue receiving government funds,</p><p>and many more issues, they focus on featuring videos about me on their channelpage. Videos that are made by accounts that miraculously sound a lot like the name of one of their users, videos filled with complete and utter bullshit.</p><p>Apparently they took the time to do some doc hunting to find anything available about me on the internet, whether it's about my hobbies, my career, my political activities or my personal relationships with other people, screenshotting what they think may be "exposing" me. Funnily enough none of this information is linked to my YouTube account by myself. How pitiful is it, when you have to look up a person on Facebook, Xing and god knows where else, just to gather information on them? Am I that important to them? Why would they care so much about me?</p><p>I also find it rather funny that they are now doing the very thing they have accused me of "intending" to do, by publishing rather personal information about me everywhere, and I am not just referring to my full name. It is rather odd that the very same people who insisted that I have some kind of personal details on them and therefor am so much of a danger that they have to close their accounts are now dead set on making all that personal information about me public via links to dubious blog entries, comments referring to my job and health situation and by now over 40 videos.</p><p>I am still waiting for any evidence in regards to me "threatening" to make any personal information about their private life public, the very thing they accused me of in order to get people riled up against me, yet they take the liberty to do just that with my private life.</p><p>It's a rather unhealthy obsession, if you ask me. And quite a waste of valuable time. But hey, whatever floats your boat, I guess. If you wish to know more about my private life, kinky details about my past, you can get the spiced up version from AoD (guaranteed with special effects and some fabricated claims to sound more interesting), or you can simply ask me. It's not like I ever made a big secret out of anything.</p><p>Just one more thing: Repeating false accusations over and over again doesn't make them any more true, guys, and using your own comments as evidence is not really helping either. Just sayin'.</p><p><br /></p>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4545208049798072255.post-58716482732548209212011-02-21T03:34:00.000+01:002011-02-21T03:35:35.231+01:00Some more harassment?<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhuIvFcmqXzqA_aATt0Sy_b0YEzq3t5FoUQmaNFP8P9nCYa2yws0jQrB6eTws6RLFdNxZT757krkPQqyipiWeYnvibOnfsT1ma3ntGcg4lc23HUhQ3MawfBk-1WZviHYdzcGgjLZJN4j1kw/s1600/skype+call.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 317px; height: 400px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhuIvFcmqXzqA_aATt0Sy_b0YEzq3t5FoUQmaNFP8P9nCYa2yws0jQrB6eTws6RLFdNxZT757krkPQqyipiWeYnvibOnfsT1ma3ntGcg4lc23HUhQ3MawfBk-1WZviHYdzcGgjLZJN4j1kw/s400/skype+call.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5575965671305173458" /></a><br /><br />Ganging up is all you can do? Please...Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4545208049798072255.post-2330131535197951572011-02-20T21:22:00.000+01:002011-02-20T21:50:30.458+01:00Since people have issues with google docs...I am not about to delete a link that tells a story about how vile TemoinsGirl really is, without replacing it with something similar, just because some people get their panties in a knot over the names they themselves use being shown. While I have explained repeatedly that doc dropping requires a unique identifier and that's not the case in the google doc, I am willing to take that step to satisfy others and post an edited (and shortened) version of what happened between DoS and TemoinsGirl here:<br /><br />There was a meeting originally arranged by SoretaYuki, later hosted by TemoinsGirl in order to discuss a collab that the UTCD had been working on. I was also pulled into the conversation, but was asleep at the time, something which I do not appreciate.<br /><br />In that meeting DeathOfSpeech was to present the ideas collected for the collab video. Since the meeting was done in a voice call, he paid no attention to chat, but instead had a document open with notes in regards to the project, so he didn't see chat.<br /><br />TemoinsGirl apparently tried to get his attention in chat several times, but since he didn't have the chat window open, he didn't see it. She then accused him of being dismissive and arrogant, not wanting to hear her opinion. She also accused him of having made a very rude comment to Vogter.<br /><br />While DeathOfSpeech acknowledged that he was clumsy, not paying attention to chat, he explained that he was not intentionally being rude, but the second accusation seemed unfounded to him. He repeatedly asked her to tell him when he had made the comment she referred to, searching through his own chatlogs, informing her he was perfectly willing to apologize if he had really made such a statement.<br /><br />Instead of showing him where he had made the statement, she kept insisting he apologize for it and this continued for more than an hour.<br /><br />Within this period of frying DeathOfSpeech, she also told everyone else what a misogynist prick DeathOfSpeech was, completely misrepresenting him. In a comment to me she actually insisted that the entire UTCD was not to be trusted, that they only want to abuse some feminists to further their own agenda without allowing them their own opinions. TemoinsGirl never made any clarification to me regarding that point. She never informed me that anything had been resolved. MsPurefiction confirmed all her claims.<br /><br />When in the end it turned out that it had not been DeathOfSpeech, but in fact SmilingSkeptic that had made that remark about Vogter, she didn't even bother to apologize to DeathOfSpeech. She dismissed him with a mere "It wasn't you, so all is good now", after he had suffered abuse from not only her, but a large portion of the feminist community on YouTube.<br /><br />I still have the screenshots in my posession, and I will gladly share them with anyone (redacted with their respective YouTube names instead of their Skype handles).<br /><br />This is the way TemoinsGirl will treat anyone who happens to not do exactly as she pleases. I have confirmation from several other YouTubers that have received similar treatment from her, and I am going through much of the same now. She wants to be the unquestioned queen of everything, and I simply will not submit to her wishes.<br /><br />Enough said for now. If you wish to see the screenshots that document this, feel free to contact me.Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4545208049798072255.post-60598313322757068162011-02-20T12:50:00.001+01:002011-02-26T17:40:52.059+01:00Poor Vogter getting doc dropped on his channel comments, SoretaYuki on Twitter, SmilingSkeptic and TemoinsGirl in the skype directory!Oh noes, not only did the evil FelidaTheGeek link to a document where Vogter's first name was misspelled, it seems other friends of his also decided to drop his docs all over his new channel's comment page:<br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhTa9bn20xXejEXNe-Y-AHjMTPsmRUiKhY6gRCXwHjHAdsmOF579ErkJcQWfMX8xXDX1EXKntyfNjrOHiXVlTdaHugzjuq_40-2XDqYZls-dcGDU1LZu-DVNyXwwtzE0YxJ-c1AYMyB9WzL/s1600/76.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 400px; height: 121px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhTa9bn20xXejEXNe-Y-AHjMTPsmRUiKhY6gRCXwHjHAdsmOF579ErkJcQWfMX8xXDX1EXKntyfNjrOHiXVlTdaHugzjuq_40-2XDqYZls-dcGDU1LZu-DVNyXwwtzE0YxJ-c1AYMyB9WzL/s400/76.jpg" border="0" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5575738010120352882" /></a><br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEisqlCM-jZtARAIn7tmnP7SrOpcuAydYDuzLI9NhMCy7-co97ziIB7qJ5qSe5HeF_9vZl2FVnm1N7_a2aLZFI6LyKkYfPk83tfkrwyty58BbouSjVnM2XT0eIzVj6Yoke9SQ2lYKW4H32b5/s1600/77.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 400px; height: 79px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEisqlCM-jZtARAIn7tmnP7SrOpcuAydYDuzLI9NhMCy7-co97ziIB7qJ5qSe5HeF_9vZl2FVnm1N7_a2aLZFI6LyKkYfPk83tfkrwyty58BbouSjVnM2XT0eIzVj6Yoke9SQ2lYKW4H32b5/s400/77.jpg" border="0" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5575740789470586594" /></a><br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjAnfPb_LDFb7TL_GLHw18rkXodyD_Ws6VijuJWfp6a9yUQed2Kc61N6xR7rnM1jDlYRS7nNZCGClMSwB-sGFKZHamu9DVBWlnMONpLLEKryti4b1b06GpkE-YyM_5Vg39RPFW23XQUlXil/s1600/78.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 400px; height: 82px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjAnfPb_LDFb7TL_GLHw18rkXodyD_Ws6VijuJWfp6a9yUQed2Kc61N6xR7rnM1jDlYRS7nNZCGClMSwB-sGFKZHamu9DVBWlnMONpLLEKryti4b1b06GpkE-YyM_5Vg39RPFW23XQUlXil/s400/78.jpg" border="0" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5575740921580837506" /></a><br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhTHtts_xj1JuOo49-0HyuIb1S1Bhzrg9P7xSRHbi6AYpuH9uStLy4VlHsBoNSyWf2SQ7JZdpzpSkZGn-TOFVj2xDpVYTpYuq3U9JdluwTDuhCfDQk1ABQV1vJIKzCGgB0sGxF5wQYptwv3/s1600/79.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 400px; height: 44px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhTHtts_xj1JuOo49-0HyuIb1S1Bhzrg9P7xSRHbi6AYpuH9uStLy4VlHsBoNSyWf2SQ7JZdpzpSkZGn-TOFVj2xDpVYTpYuq3U9JdluwTDuhCfDQk1ABQV1vJIKzCGgB0sGxF5wQYptwv3/s400/79.jpg" border="0" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5575741026951442194" /></a><br /><br />And poor SoretaYuki doc drops himself on Twitter:<br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEilzmgKge2ePFAY_LWm7bXQtW4w3KaaW25s_0gCb8KP2xGiboRGsMt0etLOVj1n2yDO3gDTIri8yrtFR80d2-TBUVYZPdM3yd9OLC54y4RMa-GpxOD_AFffbF9jdXVYjkvQpnYSAWgDKmVg/s1600/SoretaYuki.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 400px; height: 198px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEilzmgKge2ePFAY_LWm7bXQtW4w3KaaW25s_0gCb8KP2xGiboRGsMt0etLOVj1n2yDO3gDTIri8yrtFR80d2-TBUVYZPdM3yd9OLC54y4RMa-GpxOD_AFffbF9jdXVYjkvQpnYSAWgDKmVg/s400/SoretaYuki.jpg" border="0" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5576392394883108834" /></a><br /><br />SmilingSkeptic is in no way shy about his docs when it comes to allowing the Skype directory to display some things about him.<br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhc2AMlvIFd-ViCuszO0wxUAHPUTCU4NfehaRNuP-dGwuiY9grV5_LmXQmIKZ7XXJ1gTu6tkoIVPkjo_R5raIJ4mtby4J9bBLDrTVxPo9NSse_0hLSzB04H8vCIsy7B0Hf2uGnwPvstThMp/s1600/SmilingSkeptic.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 400px; height: 276px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhc2AMlvIFd-ViCuszO0wxUAHPUTCU4NfehaRNuP-dGwuiY9grV5_LmXQmIKZ7XXJ1gTu6tkoIVPkjo_R5raIJ4mtby4J9bBLDrTVxPo9NSse_0hLSzB04H8vCIsy7B0Hf2uGnwPvstThMp/s400/SmilingSkeptic.jpg" border="0" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5576400477496244834" /></a><br /><br />TemoinsGirl has almost the same problems:<br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhPE4SVPnGw0LPcpscupq-RgeG-2w1oidZn_8Ozza_VE4j832jFQFouKr0Xf0XRkbGaTwKpwSvRR3_MSfctvgojRpiSdRjDG1Upo3ifZm67mBnwH9dSZUJKiY530aGeGiIo8-Tpw04M0xqa/s1600/temoinsgirl.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 400px; height: 210px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhPE4SVPnGw0LPcpscupq-RgeG-2w1oidZn_8Ozza_VE4j832jFQFouKr0Xf0XRkbGaTwKpwSvRR3_MSfctvgojRpiSdRjDG1Upo3ifZm67mBnwH9dSZUJKiY530aGeGiIo8-Tpw04M0xqa/s400/temoinsgirl.jpg" border="0" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5576422701756234482" /></a><br /><br />Stop the evil doc dropping, I say!<br /><br />Oh wait...<br /><br /><span style="font-style:italic;">[NOTE: I replaced the handle she used, which was her first name initial and her last name, with TemoinsGirl so she wouldn't cry out that she's doc dropped again]</span><br /><br /><span style="font-weight:bold;">TemoinsGirl on whether Zierota doc dropped ShockOfGod:</span><br />[1/21/2011 14:03:54] TemoinsGirl: In case it matters in this discussion, that name is one he used hmself and has been referred to in numourous videos and no one's ever complained, including him. [Zierota - name edited to protect his privacy, since I am sure the first letter of his name is a unique identifier] said he' d be happy to cover this when he's not at work and is making a folow up video. He insists he did not drop doc (he knows how I feel abo tthis I would be horrified) and I believe him.<br /><span style="font-weight:bold;">[1/21/2011 14:05:31] TemoinsGirl: He outed the name, if it's a real one, he dropped himself.</span><br /><br /><span style="font-weight:bold;">TemoinsGirl on whether it would be easy to find her if anyone knew her real name:</span><br /><span style="font-weight:bold;color:red;">[25.12.2010 23:07:10] TemoinsGirl: Thank GAwd I have such a m=commonname lol Like looking for a Chin in a Chinese phone book ;)</span><br />[25.12.2010 23:09:51] FelidaTheGeek هيلتون: hehe<br />[25.12.2010 23:09:56] FelidaTheGeek هيلتون: my name is rather unusual here<br />[25.12.2010 23:09:59] FelidaTheGeek هيلتون: so I'm easy to find<br />[25.12.2010 23:10:05] TemoinsGirl: You're screwed lol<br />[25.12.2010 23:10:15] FelidaTheGeek هيلتون: Well, I'm still not worried :P<br /><span style="font-weight:bold;color:red;">[25.12.2010 23:10:22] TemoinsGirl: There areover 300 ppl with my name here and more if you use initials lol</span><br />[25.12.2010 23:10:36] FelidaTheGeek هيلتون: Let me check the german phone directory for my last name, sec<br />[25.12.2010 23:11:45] FelidaTheGeek هيلتون: 11 entries in all of Germany that share my last name<br />[25.12.2010 23:12:08] FelidaTheGeek هيلتون: the rest are commercial entries (mainly hotels :P)<br />[25.12.2010 23:12:25] TemoinsGirl: I didn't even check to see businesses, prolly more lol god ideaUnknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4545208049798072255.post-31262024403861949562011-02-07T02:59:00.001+01:002011-02-07T03:05:23.043+01:00The innocence of ZierotaThe defender of innocent doc dropping victims who get called by their first name, the very name they never had an issue being addressed by in public groups, until you are not their friend anymore, is showing his political correctness:<br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiSkxSj2Ip6sgL3gAwa-9c8k55BwL4KtbLKttBysRWcm8gIBuzxMmidXHAoYujylvxl1-5YUmJgWce8tHycoVLrXGYyM6BR-yeKsW92dsKNClqqaGs3f5I4r1D1Pc80gnrJaG-ZCADPX4Eu/s1600/flagspam.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 400px; height: 150px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiSkxSj2Ip6sgL3gAwa-9c8k55BwL4KtbLKttBysRWcm8gIBuzxMmidXHAoYujylvxl1-5YUmJgWce8tHycoVLrXGYyM6BR-yeKsW92dsKNClqqaGs3f5I4r1D1Pc80gnrJaG-ZCADPX4Eu/s400/flagspam.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5570762539269901682" /></a><br /><br />I spoke up against this in a response, but by that time it appears the flagging had already commenced.<br /><br />And I'm the bad person here?Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4545208049798072255.post-46535300816793833452011-02-06T17:51:00.000+01:002011-02-07T06:14:34.369+01:00Why did I leave the AoD?I received the following messages:<br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjsTCtKsG8ox99WGXwR5HdTH7ScLMtJA-8gVRjbQbBfqylv_oQtQ6i4xSG4l0NX-_OXvO_bq-KHrZead3ZxwTJmNqY846iBr2_0fO7pSwHfCjcqj-bHwSaEW6zwP9J1yxQqnD62teZT13ug/s1600/pooka1.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 400px; height: 225px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjsTCtKsG8ox99WGXwR5HdTH7ScLMtJA-8gVRjbQbBfqylv_oQtQ6i4xSG4l0NX-_OXvO_bq-KHrZead3ZxwTJmNqY846iBr2_0fO7pSwHfCjcqj-bHwSaEW6zwP9J1yxQqnD62teZT13ug/s400/pooka1.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5570620302928480610" /></a><br /><br />I made the mistake of questioning these statements and actually talking to Pooka to find out both sides of the story, since I was sure it was a misunderstanding, Something I informed Eli of:<br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjPwc335x7BewrR_vcvkHj47S1I9D4tcQlLT-Fo0JmcYiQ7y2uXAAI-wAvmEUkG3x9XB_9gGZmSq3rNxGwJ3iDT9KHCmrkTqcRqUppzyQMca7qHiTWzSLf1NyJ4Vdp-yLOGN90wjBw05NH3/s1600/pooka2.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 400px; height: 225px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjPwc335x7BewrR_vcvkHj47S1I9D4tcQlLT-Fo0JmcYiQ7y2uXAAI-wAvmEUkG3x9XB_9gGZmSq3rNxGwJ3iDT9KHCmrkTqcRqUppzyQMca7qHiTWzSLf1NyJ4Vdp-yLOGN90wjBw05NH3/s400/pooka2.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5570622561091594866" /></a><br /><br />In a chat between me, TemoinsGirl, MsPurefiction and WilliamCardno I was accused of blabbing AoD info to Pooka. See the screenshots to see that this was not the case. I was not informed of any details previous to the talk, nor was I told it was AoD business until after I had already spoken to Pooka, something TemoinsGirl was fully aware of.<br /><br />Even if it had been though, the order to not discuss any of this with Pooka in a very authoritative way given by TemoinsGirl was enough for me to leave the Alliance of Demons, since I refuse to accept statements without proof and was denied permission to gather proof myself. My hanging up on the call was met with PMs from both TemoinsGirl and WilliamCardno, both of whom got eventually blocked.<br /><br />I also received a few "responses" to comments I made on other people's videos, all done by MsPureFiction, all done within a single hour, all on different videos, all equivocal:<br /><br /><blockquote>@FelidaTheGeek Yeah doesn't it suck when people don't actually LISTEN to the words you say? Some people are just so set on the mind that they are right and you are wrong that they completely lose the ability to respond to what your are actually saying and respond to what they WANT you to be saying instead... totally ridiculous! agreed!</blockquote><br />This was in reference to me not accepting that they were forbidding me to discuss anything with Pooka. She tried to paint it as a confidentiality issue and in the talk actually accused me of breaking confidentiality. See screenshots above again to know I never did. It was posted on a video that clarified a previous topic because the audience would keep moving goalpoasts.<br /><br /><blockquote>@FelidaTheGeek Yeah don't hypocrites just make the most untrustworthy people?? I cant believe her nerve!</blockquote><br />A stab at my "untrustworthiness", because I decided to get Pooka's side of the story. Posted on a video that talked about feminists.<br /><br /><blockquote>@FelidaTheGeek It really sucks when people display such horrific behavior as online stalking but sometimes one is fortunate enough to have good friends to help out in such situations. I have done exactly that for many people!</blockquote><br />A little hint that she "helped" me during a time when I was attacked by trolls. Her help consisted of thumbing up videos of mine that were thumbed down by the trolls - with all her sock accounts, which are also used to thumb down videos she doesn't like, and which are also used to hit the spam flag on channel comments of her targets. I forgot which video that was on.<br /><br /><blockquote>@FelidaTheGeek It would be sooo nice if every one could just quit their jobs when said job becomes burdensome and just stay home and relax until they felt like working again. That would be a perfect world huh?</blockquote><br />A little stab at me recently quitting my job for health reasons. Posted on a video that talked about being busy with work and hence not having much time for youtube.<br /><br /><blockquote>@FelidaTheGeek Some of those right-wing fucktards seem to think that every one who utilizes public assistance is just some lazy slob who just doesn't want to work! I don't understand why they cant just understand that some people need public services to SURVIVE, not just because they don't fell like workin'</blockquote><br />Again, a stab at me quitting my job. Forgot which video this was on.<br /><br /><blockquote>@FelidaTheGeek So lucky for us that you have more time to do these things :D</blockquote><br />And the last stab at me quitting my job. Again, not sure what video this was on.<br /><br />After a quick talk with her, she also got blocked on Skype.<br /><br />Funnily enough though, I received the following log a few days after I left the AoD under above mentioned circumstances:<br /><br /><blockquote><br />[5:02:44] Eli: Tanja blocked me<br />[5:03:07] Eli: Never did a thing against her, enevr said a word about her.<br />[5:03:12] neonscale: lol - took her long enough to do that.<br />[5:03:34] neonscale: was she sitting on that for 4 days wondering? :P<br />[5:03:44] Eli: I have no idea.<br />[5:04:10 | Removed by Eli, 8:45:30] neonscale: This message has been removed.<br />[5:04:19] Eli: shakes her head<br />[5:04:37 | Edited 5:04:47] devchelle1: can someone please shake my head<br />[5:04:39] devchelle1: please<br />[5:05:14] Eli: Do you knwo why Tanja blocked me?<br />[5:05:20] devchelle1: nope<br />[5:05:32] Eli: That's interesting.<br />[5:05:45] devchelle1: whats interesting?<br />[5:06:19] Eli: "Hi, Eli, let me ragequit in front of others, put you in a horrible position, give you shit about it for two hours, fuck you over for days and now I'll block you." Well, that sucks, doesn't it?<br />[5:06:47] Eli: Wow, that's the first comment I've made about this whole experience.<br />[5:06:59] devchelle1: i dont know shit about any of it<br />[5:07:01] devchelle1: soo....<br />[5:07:12] devchelle1: Hi *cute smile*<br />[5:07:31] Eli: Oh cmon Rob I knwo she talks to you. It's no big deal.<br />[5:07:48] devchelle1: nope<br />[5:07:51] neonscale: Shit, Feebs' channel just went dark!<br />[5:08:02] devchelle1: all she said was you guys had a fight<br />[5:08:13] Eli: No, William was there, SHE had a fight. All by herself<br />[5:08:20] devchelle1: i dunno why and she never told me<br />[5:08:28] devchelle1: see<br />[5:08:30] devchelle1: i dunno<br />[5:08:56] Eli: Peopel don't like being held accountable. That's fine.<br />[5:09:03] devchelle1: ?<br />[5:09:08] devchelle1: ok....?<br />[5:09:11] neonscale: she did. and then she had a fight with me when I asked her to stop talking shit about Eli to me.<br />[5:09:32] Eli: So um yeah. No worries.<br />[5:09:47] Eli: I know, F put the lights out eralier today<br />[5:09:53] devchelle1: she did... what? had a fight by herself?<br />[5:09:55] Eli: Guess he's had enough too<br />[5:10:09] neonscale: wait, why would she talk shit about Eli to me as it was unfolding but not tell you shit? I thought you were closer with her.<br />[5:10:28] devchelle1: i dont talk to her that much<br />[5:11:18] Eli: I told you, Rob. I didn't have a fight. She had a fight.<br />[5:11:47] Eli: I had nothign to do with it and neither did the other three people who were there.<br />[5:11:53] devchelle1: ok<br />[5:11:53 | Removed by Eli, 6:33:54] neonscale: This message has been removed.<br />[5:11:56] devchelle1: im lost<br />[5:11:57] neonscale: I just hope he's okay<br />[5:12:03] devchelle1: Ill show you what she told me<br />[5:12:18] Eli: I think Feebs is just where I'm at. Done with it.<br />[5:12:51] devchelle1: <blockquote>[1/28/2011 4:27:01 AM] FelidaTheGeek: just had a fight with Eli and left AoD... if this blows up, please don't get involved... I'm hoping it will simply blow over and we can ignore each other<br />[1/28/2011 5:20:18 AM] FelidaTheGeek: Dear FelidaTheGeek:<br /><br />Thank you for submitting your video appeal to YouTube. After further review, we've determined that your video doesn't violate our Community Guidelines. Your video has been reinstated and your account is in good standing. <br /><br />Sincerely,<br /><br />— The YouTube Team<br />[1/28/2011 5:20:21 AM] FelidaTheGeek: FelidaTheGeek cheers<br />[1/28/2011 6:58:48 AM] Devchelle2: yay<br />[1/28/2011 6:58:55 AM] Devchelle2: what happened with eli?<br />[1/28/2011 7:08:23 AM] FelidaTheGeek: Nothing I really want to talk about. :(<br />[1/28/2011 7:08:38 AM] Devchelle2: k<br />[1/28/2011 7:10:08 AM] Devchelle2: feel better love<br />[1/28/2011 7:10:48 AM] FelidaTheGeek: wish I could... health issues are fucking with me badly atm, which is why I quit my job the other day<br />[1/28/2011 7:11:00 AM] Devchelle2: wtf?<br />[1/28/2011 7:11:08 AM] FelidaTheGeek: I'm hoping to get things somewhat working again, but I'm scared shitless of my cardiology checkup<br />[1/28/2011 7:11:09 AM] Devchelle2: you quit your job?????<br />[1/28/2011 7:11:11 AM] FelidaTheGeek: yes<br />[1/28/2011 7:11:35 AM] FelidaTheGeek: I was threadbare, it was getting too much, trying to work my job and my family while my health was going down the drain<br />[1/28/2011 7:12:01 AM] FelidaTheGeek: I already had a collapse in summer and went back to work after 4 weeks, my doc kept telling me it was too soon<br />[1/28/2011 7:12:15 AM] FelidaTheGeek: and kept telling me I need a long break, or my body would react again<br />[1/28/2011 7:12:24 AM] FelidaTheGeek: and I felt lately that it was going to come soon<br />[1/28/2011 7:12:39 AM] Devchelle2: well you need to take care of you<br />[1/28/2011 7:12:41 AM] FelidaTheGeek: so I finally decided to take that break and take care of my health... my kids need their mom<br />[1/28/2011 7:12:50 AM] Devchelle2: very true<br />[1/28/2011 7:13:01 AM] FelidaTheGeek: it was a tough decision :( I loved that job<br />[1/28/2011 7:13:26 AM] FelidaTheGeek: but what good would it be, if I end up collapsing again and perhaps not coming out of it this time<br />[1/28/2011 7:13:39 AM] Devchelle2: well then<br />[1/28/2011 7:13:45 AM] Devchelle2: take the time you need and chill<br />[1/28/2011 7:21:13 AM] Devchelle2: did u see this? http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WnmgUh2XI4o&feature=feedu<br />[1/28/2011 7:24:04 AM] Devchelle2: im doing a fuck you series on my back up channel<br />[1/28/2011 7:24:46 AM] Devchelle2: all of them will be about 35 seconds or so with some famous person saying something stupid and me saying fuck off<br />[1/28/2011 7:25:35 AM] FelidaTheGeek: Will look in a bit, working on a video atm :P<br />[1/28/2011 7:25:39 AM] Devchelle2: k</blockquote><br />[5:12:58] devchelle1: thats all i know<br />[5:15:09] Eli: Rob, I told you. I did not fight with her. They did not fight with her. No one fought with her. SHE HAD A FIGHT<br />[5:15:15] devchelle1: ok<br />[5:15:17] devchelle1: wtf eli<br />[5:15:25] devchelle1: did i once say i doubted you?<br />[5:15:31] Eli: Oh honey I'm nto mad at you at all no worries<br />[5:15:39] devchelle1: did i once say i even know ANYTHING you guys are talking about?<br />[5:16:15] devchelle1: repeatedly I have said i dont have a clue... and i dont<br />[5:16:20] Eli: looks at William<br />[5:16:24] devchelle1: she had a fight... ok.... and????<br />[5:16:26] Eli: She cated liek a crazy person, Rob<br />[5:16:39] Eli: I don't knwo what else is appropriate to say<br />[5:16:47] devchelle1: i dont wanna know<br />[5:17:16] neonscale: She up and bolted because she couldn't handle the confiential nature of the meeting and being asked not to share info.<br />[5:17:16] Eli: I told you I did not have a fight she had a fight and that you didn't wanna know when you aslked me the first time<br />[5:17:30] devchelle1: but dont say..<br />[5:17:31] Eli: (I did wanr you)<br />[5:17:31] neonscale: this request caused her to rage on everyone<br />[5:17:34] devchelle1: [4:57] Eli: <br /><br /><<< Oh cmon Rob I knwo she talks to you. It's no big deal.<br />[5:17:53] Eli: I meant you can be friends with anyoen you lkike silly<br />[5:18:08] devchelle1: o.O<br />[5:18:16] Eli: I would never ever tell anyoen who they can be friends with or who to talk to<br />[5:18:20] devchelle1: <----lost<br />[5:18:34] Eli: I knwo she talks to you. It's not a big deal, honey. No worries.<br />[5:18:38] Eli: I'm kinda glad<br />[5:18:45] devchelle1: thats right its no big deal<br />[5:18:46] Eli: I think she needs a few good friends after all this<br />[5:18:56] Eli: I told you this already.<br />[5:18:59] devchelle1: but i dont know what you guys are talking about<br />[5:19:04] devchelle1: cause no one told me<br />[5:19:06] neonscale: Eli says you can be her friend and Tanja's friend without worries.<br />[5:19:09] devchelle1: and i dont wanna know<br />[5:19:17] devchelle1: ???<br />[5:19:24] devchelle1: why would there be worries?<br />[5:19:24] Eli: Rob, quit feralin' lol<br />[5:19:39] Eli: freakin' ack I can't type<br />[5:19:39] neonscale: You know how YouTube drama can get<br />[5:19:46] devchelle1: lmao<br />[5:19:50] devchelle1: WHAT DRAMA???<br />[5:19:55] devchelle1: lol dude i am lost<br />[5:19:56] Eli: I was keeping you (and everyone else) the hell out of this.<br />[5:20:13] devchelle1: ok okm ok wait<br />[5:20:20] Eli: Believe me, we didn;t want it either, we just got hit by the explosion lol<br />[5:20:26] devchelle1: everyone... sssshhhhh ((wait))<br />[5:20:43] neonscale: remember what happened a few months ago. people think binary and like "you're with us or against us" - Eli said that she's not gonna treat you like that, silly. :P<br />[5:20:45] devchelle1: i. have. no. clue.<br />[5:21:12] Eli: I told you it's fine, Rob. When you ask, I keep you out of it.<br />[5:21:19] devchelle1: that should not need to be said<br />[5:21:35] devchelle1: the fact that it is said.... is odd<br />[5:21:39] devchelle1: o.O<br />[5:21:40] Eli: The only thing I ever asked of you was to be her friend cos she needs more good people around her<br />[5:21:54] Eli: That's it<br />[5:22:25] devchelle1: ok then o,o<br />[5:22:40] Eli: So wtf are you freakin' about then? lol Quit it, you're freakin' ME out<br />[5:22:56] devchelle1: [4:57] Eli: <br /><br /><<< Oh cmon Rob I knwo she talks to you. It's no big deal.<br />[5:22:59] devchelle1: AND<br />[5:23:08] neonscale: it's okay Rob... deep breath<br />[5:23:31] devchelle1: [5:00] William Cardno: <br /><br /><<< wait, why would she talk shit about Eli to me as it was unfolding but not tell you shit? I thought you were closer with her.<br />[5:23:41] Eli: I knwo she talks to you because you're friends, Rob. I'm the one that asked you to stay friends cos she needs more good people around her. remember? Helloooooo<br />[5:23:42] devchelle1: ???<br />[5:24:31] neonscale: well I just found that odd since the grapevine has it that you and her were really close, and she was more than comfortable going on and on to me about it when I was trying to get her to calm down and ask her to stop talking shit about Eli to me.<br />[5:24:36] devchelle1: <----lost<br />[5:24:44] devchelle1: O,O<br />[5:24:46] neonscale: That's where I'm coming from<br />[5:24:53] Eli: She did tell him shit, he got the sdtandrad PM she was sending off to everyone, Wiliam. The "I had a fight with Eli" thing? That's what she sent out to like everybody.<br />[5:24:59] Eli: That's when ROb came to me to ask if I was okay<br />[5:25:13] Eli: I confided my heart to him. I asked him to please look out for her<br />[5:25:16] Eli: He's a good guy<br />[5:25:21] Eli: He said he would<br />[5:25:24] neonscale: he is a good guy. :D<br />[5:25:28] Eli: That's all it refers to<br />[5:25:34] devchelle1: and thats all i know<br />[5:25:36] devchelle1: so yes....<br />[5:25:55] devchelle1: <---lost<br />[5:26:05] Eli: And it was a private conversation between me and ROb, no off=ense, I mean I had my heart hanging out in it so it's not that I don't love you, William, it's just that it was between me and Rob. I knwo you understand :)<br />[5:26:23] Eli: I just wanted him to look after Tanja. That's all.<br />[5:26:41] neonscale: fair enough<br />[5:26:53] neonscale: I'll try and txt Feebs and see what's up<br />[5:27:10] Eli: I'm telling you he just had enough William, that's why he went unavailable<br />[5:27:18] Eli: But give him my love okay?<br />[5:27:27] neonscale: ofcourse<br />[5:27:33] neonscale: bbl guys<br />[5:28:40] Eli: Rob, honestly, calm down. He just didn't understand we had a private conversation you and me, I guess. ANd thanks for not talking about it others. I kinda feel stupid with my heart hanging out like that, especially under the circumstances. Sort of makes me look foolish? I dunno<br />[5:28:44] Eli: Anyway....<br />[5:28:50] Eli: Is it Wednesday?<br />[5:29:02] devchelle1: no<br />[5:29:04] Eli: Whew lol<br />[5:29:27] devchelle1: no it just sounds accusatory... and i have no idea whats goin on<br />[5:30:01] Eli: No he's just upset Feebs went dark<br />[5:30:05] Eli: It has nothign to do with you.<br />[5:30:09] Eli: Everyone I knwo adores you<br />[5:30:30] Eli: Honestly, I think feebs just went dark for the same reason both ***** and I did<br />[5:30:50] Eli: I just think it took him a bit onger to get there. He has a lot goiong on right now.<br />[5:31:48] devchelle1: oh<br />[5:31:52] Eli: Rob can you see this video? Pleasew check behind me http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KkobmX9-FMY<br />[5:31:58] devchelle1: idk... im not around much<br />[5:32:06] Eli: Me either<br />[5:32:12] devchelle1: nope private<br />[5:32:18] Eli: That's odd<br />[5:32:42] Eli: Wait<br />[5:32:48] Eli: Can uou see this one? http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ys3aKpPLFyg<br />[5:32:58] devchelle1: nope<br />[5:33:03] Eli: How about this one??? http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ys3aKpPLFyg<br />[5:33:11] devchelle1: nope<br />[5:33:14] Eli: Oh shit<br />[5:33:38] Eli: Every video I have in Feebs play list on my channel comes up that way<br />[5:33:43] Eli: every single one<br />[5:33:47] Eli: HOLY SHIT<br />[5:33:55] devchelle1: he set them to private<br />[5:34:00] Eli: All of them??????<br />[5:34:09] devchelle1: looks like it<br />[5:34:15] Eli: HOLY SHIT BATMAN<br />[5:34:26] Eli: He must be eight shades of pissed off<br />[5:34:53] Eli: No doubt, I shall expect an email (sighs) My poor baby. He's had enough, too, I think.<br />[5:35:10] Eli: See? This is a reaction to all the drama and shit, I know it<br />[5:35:43] Eli: I told them I'm privating my channel because I just don't wanna be available. Then they run to *****. She gets disgusted, she does it too. They must have fun to Feebs.<br />[5:35:44] devchelle1: i guess<br />[5:35:46] devchelle1: lol<br />[5:35:50] devchelle1: <--- lost<br />[5:36:27] Eli: Rob, I am allergic to bullshit lol That's my probkem, So I totally cannot handle YT drama landing i my lap every five seconds. I mean your life is not drama, it's real life.<br />[5:36:31] Eli: That's not the same.\<br />[5:36:40] Eli: I don't mean you, okay?<br />[5:36:47] devchelle1: k<br />[5:36:47] Eli: I'm talking all this other stuff<br />[5:36:55] Eli: Peopel's stupid unecessary wars<br />[5:37:12] Eli: Dragging everyone else into it like it's a game<br />[5:37:20] devchelle1: yea its stupid<br />[5:37:36] Eli: Yes it is<br />[5:38:13] Eli: Why can;t peopel just be honest? I mean, fi you fuck uo, own it, apologize and don't do it again. I mean ffs everyoen fucks up, yeah? We've all fucked up. Just don't treat other peopel bad because of yrou big ass ego, ya know?<br />[5:38:24] devchelle1: yup<br />[5:38:28] Eli: Amen<br />[5:38:36] Eli: ( I can say that I'm agnostic lol)<br />[5:38:42] devchelle1: lol<br />[5:38:47] Eli: HOLY FUCKING SHIT<br />[5:38:54] Eli: Rob, casn you see william's chanenl???????<br />[5:39:01] devchelle1: link<br />[5:39:14] Eli: www.youtube.com/williamcardno<br />[5:39:26] devchelle1: nope<br />[5:39:32] Eli: Rut eoh<br />[5:39:58] Eli: yeah, feebs has had enough. Wiliam must agree with whatever he said I guess.<br />[5:40:04] Eli: Now there are foru of us<br />[5:40:06] Eli: Great<br />[5:40:26] Eli: I better go make sure they're okay, Rob<br />[5:40:31] Eli: Sorry to chata nd run<br />[5:40:35] Eli: Forgive me ok?<br />[5:40:45] Eli: Talk to y later, love, and let me know how you are ok?<br />[5:40:54] Eli: bblt<br />[5:41:04] devchelle1: later<br />[7:32:53] devchelle1: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gtxNRcnLwPo<br />[8:45:43] *** Eli removed Radon from this conversation. ***</blockquote><br /><br />(I removed some passages that are irrelevant in this matter)<br /><br />So yes, apparently I'm some insane person who storms in and fights with herself about nothing, in desperate need of friends, gathered for me by the people who witnessed me ragequit a kumbayah singing collab channel....lol<br /><br />I could supply you with a lot more screenshots about their hypocricy and foul methods, but I don't think they are worth it. Besides, keeping a little backup of things is a nice thing, innit?<br /><br />Oh and MsPureFiction and TemoinsGirl: Before you accuse me of doc dropping again because I refer to you by the name that others call you in public as well, read the above log and see whose name YOU throw around? :-) Thanks.Unknownnoreply@blogger.com1